She Was My Wife || JenlisaxChaennie

14. LOVING CAN HURT

Lisa's POV

The morning I fetch Jennie, I feel something was off. She is wearing sunglasses which is not something she would always do. I greeted her goodmorning and kissed her but she just said 'morning' and smiled a little. "Are you okay, Jennie?" "Yes. I am just tired" she answered faking a yawn. "Why don't you take a nap while I drive." She just nodded and closed her eyes.

We arrived in the boutique. We have tried the dresses to see if it fits. After that, we went to the jewelry shop to get our personalized wedding rings. She was still emotionless. I saw her eyes swollen when she took off her sunglasses. She cried, I knew it, but she won't open up to me. I tried to lighten up her mood. I took her to an ice cream shop near the park. She seemed to smile a little so I took the chance to ask her, "Why did you cry? Have I did something wrong?" She looked at me and smiled sadly. "I know I said I love you in front of everybody and that was true. But there's still a part of me that hurts knowing Rosé still loves me. Last night she messaged me but I just read it this morning. She congratulated me for the graduation and the marriage. I'm sorry. I wanted to be fair to you that's why I'm telling you this." So thats the reason. Ofcourse, being an understanding lover, I went to hug her and kissed her temple. "Thank you for telling me this, for being honest. I promise to give you the love you deserve. So smile for me, yeah? Mrs. Manoban?" She laughed hearing me call her 'Mrs. Manoban'. Her laugh was effortlessly sexy. "Thank you Lisa. I know you'll gonna be a good husband." I kissed her lips before we went out. She said she promised her cousin her time so I let her. I drive her home before I went to my dad's office to discuss the wedding invitations.

Jennies POV

Rosé's message had me depressed. I wanted to hug her and say I'm sorry. And that I'll always love her. The dreams that we share together has to be reached apart. I also feel sorry for Lisa. I know she was excited but I don't really have the energy. I am so thankful that she understands. I don't want her to see me more like this so I have to go home earlier with the excuse of bonding with Jisoo.

I knocked on Jisoo's room. As soon as she opened the door, I hugged her and cried. "Hey! Hey! What's the matter?" she wanted to see my face but I tightened my hug. "Rosé." One word and she knew. Jisoo knew about me and Rosé. She knew how much I love her. When I let go of her, she wiped my tear. "Mandu, sometimes loving someone hurts. Rosé loves you and it's hurting her too. Remember when Ed Sheeran said. 'Loving can hurt sometimes, but it's the only way to make us feel alive.'" That hit me. "It hurts Jisoo. I thought falling in love with Lisa would make it hurt less. But it still hurts so much. It still feels like yesterday." I weep like a child. "You know, it doesn't hurt because it's new. It hurts cause it's true. You may have long broken up with a person, but when your feeling is true, it would still feel like yesterday. Take the time that she's away to heal yourself while she does too. When the time comes that you're both healed, seeing her or even texting her would make you happy, not the other way around." Jisoo always knows what to say. I am so lucky to have her as my cousin.

I did not realize that I fell asleep in Jisoo's room. I just woke up feeling someone poking my cheek and saw my brother. "Jisoo noona said you fell asleep crying about Rosé.. I'm sorry about what happened between you two. You know I like her for you but I guess that's not how our lives should go." He hugged me but I was tired of crying. I hugged him back and told him it was okay. That we should go and have fun.

The rest of the day includes karaoke bar hopping with my brother and cousin. We all went to talent school when we were young so I could say that we have the talent. We also went bowling which is our favourite sport. By the time we went home, it was past 11pm. We went to bed and got ready for tomorrow in which our family members abroad will be arriving.

The next morning, I woke up hearing little voices beside me so I pretended I'm still asleep. "Auntie Jennie is like a sleeping beauty. Will she wake up if I kiss her?" I hear a sound of a little boy. I know who this is already. My 4 year old nephew, Chayse. The son of Jisoo's brother, Bum. "I don't know. Why don't we kiss her?" I smiled inside hearing a girls little voice answered. It should be Stacy, my 5 year old niece. Chayse older sister. Then I felt little lips landing all over my face. I opened my eyes and they giggled cutely. I played along with their sleeping beauty belief. "Oh my prince and princess. You have saved the Sleeping beauty." They laughed and we played for a while before Aunt Eugene peeked at the door.

"There you are little monsters! You successfully woke the Princess up!" Aunt Eugene said while she lifted Stacy. "We kissed the sleeping beauty nana!" the little girl was very proud and we all laughed. I got up and carried Chayse. Before we went down, he asked me, "Auntie Jennie, Nana said you already have a prince and you'll get married. Will you live happily ever after?" I was stunned with his question. He was looking at me with curiosity so I nodded and said, "Yes, princes and princesses live happily ever after." He hugged me and we went downstairs. We will be happy ever after, right?