A different christmas //PHAN\\ (boyxboy)

BONUS CHAPTER-New Years PT2

I looked at Dan pouting at me once again.
I hate him.
No I don't, he didn't know what he was doing, he wouldn't cheat on me.
I hate him... But I love him so damn much.
I left the room without a word heading downstairs and sat on the couch, I buried my face into my hands taking a deep breath. I tried to calm down but every time I do that scene of them kissing would keep playing over and over in my head.
I heard light foot steps coming down the stairs slowly, he was trying to be quiet, I looked up and saw Dan standing there in front of me.
He had his hands behind his back, he was biting his lip and looking to the ground.
"I'm sorry for kissing him Phil, I.... I am starting to remember a bit now it's j....ust..." I could tell by the slur in his words that he definitely wasn't fully aware of everything. But aware.
"I....wish I could.... Ta. T-t-take it back." He stuttered.
I tried not to pull any emotion, I just patted the spot on the couch next to me inviting him to sit. So he sat down.
"Dan. You're absolutely hammered, I'm tired, I don't want to talk about it right now." I refused to look at him.
"But it's New Years, we need to stay up until.... Well.... Next year,"
I don't care. I need to get away from him. But at the same time I want to cuddle up into his arms and never leave them, knowing they will never be wrapped around any other guy.
"Or we could just sleep. We don't need our new year kiss Dan!" My voice was beginning to raise.
"WHY IS THIS SUCH A BIG DEAL TO YOU! WE JUST NEED TO STAY UP FOR LIKE 2 MORE HOURS!" He started to yell.
"What's the big deal? What's the big deal?! The big deal is that you kissed another man! Another man that you don't even know!! I tried to blame it on the alcohol but the truth is that you're the one who got totally passed and you're the one who kissed him! I've never ever loved anyone as much as I love you Dan! I never have and I never will! The amount of times my heart has been stomped on, crushed, thrown away like it was nothing and ripped apart! I thought you would NEVER do that to me!" I shouted at him for the first time ever, his face started to turn real pale, "I thought you were different to everyone else but here we are! You kissed another man and you are treating it like it is nothing! Is it nothing to you??"
He looked like he wanted to say something, he looked like he was about to scream or something. But nothing came out. Not anything... At least for the few moments before he spewed.
He spewed all over the floor, I don't know why I didn't see that coming, it was actually revolting.
I avoided looking at it, instead I looked at him, I couldn't help but pity him. He was was, muck all around his mouth, tears running down his face and complete sadness planted all over him.
"Oh Dan...." I muttered with sadness. I got him a class of water and
A wet cloth to cleans his face, I didn't even know what to do with the vomit.
I googled it and apparently I need to mop it up and scoop it into a bucket..gross. I'll do so later, it's only on tiles.
I proved my hand on his back lightly and rubbed it around in small circles to comfort him as he took sips from the water, I was so tired, everything began to get a bit blurry. He was talking but I couldn't make much out of it, half from my tiredness and half from his slur in his words.
All I could make out was, "I'm sorry Phil..... I love you Phil.... Forgive me if you can Phil...." Those words played over for a while as I drifted off to sleep.

I woke up maybe an hour later to quiet sobbing and groaning.
I look up as my vision began to clear, I saw Dan crying but he was trying to hold it in, he was trying to remain quiet. I looked to the clock on the microwave, it was 11:36pm.
"Dan..." I whispered, he tried to pause his sobs but he just choked a little on his own breath.
"Phil, you're awake, sorry.. Did I wake you?" He asked as he wiped his eyes a little as if I couldn't tell he was crying.
I moved close to him sitting on his feet and helped him wipe the tears away.
I was about to say something but then something horrid came across. "What's that smell??" I asked in disgust he looked away awkwardly.
"I... I threw up before... It's all clean don't worry it's just the smell...I'm sorry."
I looked at him pitifully, "you have been apologising a lot tonight," I smirked but then that emotion left my face almost instantly, "you have drank way too much too..." I rubbed my index finger lightly against his cheek.
He looked back to me, "I'm sorry." Apologising again.
"You know... You know I still love you." I smiled.
"I love you too Phil," a massive smile crept across his face.
"I haven't entirely.. Forgiven. And I'm not over what happened but... I can't help but love you."
He was still smiling, he tried to stop but he couldn't. It was adorable. "I'll do whatever I can do make it up to you!" He pleaded.
"All I need is time and for you to please never drink that much again," I asked him with a small grin, I pulled him in for a hug, I buried my face into his shoulder and he placed his chin over my back hugging me tightly.
"Please don't leave me," I heard him mutter.
"I won't..." I replied.
We spent a while laying together, I was playing with his fingers and he was just holding me tight. It was perfect. We were also talking for a while too.
Eventually we fell asleep.
And in case you're wondering.
We did have our New Years kiss.

A/N
So this chapter wasn't that great. But I have an announcement.
Okay there will most likely be a sequel to this.
:)
-CHICKEN XX