A different christmas //PHAN\\ (boyxboy)

Chapter 18

*PHIL'S POV*
We caught the bus home, we knew it would be a lot quicker then the train.
But on the bus we couldn't wait. Yes we made out. Kinky or what? Making out on the bus??
//I DONT WRITE SMUT SORRY\\
We made love, it was amazing. Dan was amazing. Now we were laying in bed with my arm around him, Dan was laying on my chest, I could feel his fluffy hair just tickling my neck.
I rubbed my index finger in circles on his arm because I knew it comforted him.
"Phil," Dan whispered.
"Yeah Dan?" I whispered back, unsure of the whispering.
"I love you, you know that? Like I really fucking love you!" His voice slowly reached an average volume.
"Yes Dan I know.. And I love you a whole fucking lot too!"
"No I just... Can I just say something?"
His voice was sounding serious.
"Of course Bub.." I was fidgeting a little.
"You know. The day you found me, on the streets."
I nodded.
"That day.. I was sick of everything. I was sick of spending everyday hungry. I was sick of spending every day alone. No
Point in living. Day after day after day... The same. And for what? Maybe to get a bit of bread thrown at me by a 10 year old every once in a while? I was over it..."
"Dan?.." I pulled him closer nervously.
"I was over it Phil I was over it!" Dan's voice was get croaky, you know that terrible sound, that painful sound of when someone is talking even though they're about to cry. That was his voice.
"I was over it and.. I was going to end it that night, that exact night I was going to go down to the bridge on the other side of town to jump. I thought it would be the quickest way out, I would jump of that bridge to end everything!"
I swear my heart skipped a beat, I grabbed his hand tightly without realising, "Dan?? You were going to kill yourself??" I freaked out nearly yelling.
"Well can you blame me!! No one would have noticed!" He shouted, I could tell he was hiding his tears with anger.
"But you saved me Phil! You saved my damn life!!! If it weren't for you talking to me! Taking me home and giving me everything I need I would've killed myself! But you were my hero..." He softened his tone, "Phil you were my hero, my saviour, you saved my life. I love you."
The cold feeling of a tear drop fell into my bare chest as I pulled him in for a tight hug, again both of us being emotional wrecks. Hugging and crying it was a usual for us now but I liked it.
It's good to let out emotions and it's even better to have someone to let all the emotions out to comfortably.

A few hours later we realised it was around 2am and neither of us had slept in awhile now, but we still weren't tired just yet.
"The tree." Dan stated, of course the tree, Dan has been wanting to set up the tree for days now and it's technically christmas now but oh well, we set up the tree.
But we are both master procrastinators and it took us another two hours to set it up. It was fun, then we returned to original plans to make hot chocolate and watch American horror story, now we were up to season two which is great.
So while I was watching American horror story Dan refused to cuddle with me, he really enjoyed the whole Christmas spirit thing, he was wrapping presents for me. I guess I should do that too but I still have plenty of time.
Half way through the first episode I watched Dan walk out from the bed room and placed a couple present wrapped neatly in a pretty light blue wrapping paper, under the tree.
I zone out for a bit starting to feel tired until bam I'm blinded, Dan flicked the light switch on and then suddenly turns of the tv like WHY??
He plonks down on the couch sitting on my feet smiling at me. It is now about 5am.
"What is it Dan?" I tried to seem angry but he was being so damn cute.
"We should bake Christmas cookies!" He grins like a 5 year old asking for ice cream. That's when I notice the Santa hat on his head that had flashing red and green lights along the White rim. It was kind of blurry because I was very tired.
"Cookies? Really? It's like 5 in the morning!" I pull the blanket up a bit.
"But we're having guests over..." He pouted, "if you go to sleep now I know you won't wake up in time for Diana and Carly!"
I stared at him thinking of an excuse apart from I really don't want to get up right now!
"We don't have the right ingredients!" I pointed out.
"Yes we do I checked!"
"We need our rest or we won't be very good guests for Diana and Carly!"
"I know what you're like once you've had coffee!" He giggled.
"But-"
He cut me off without even speaking, we just looked down making me feel guilty. It was perfection.
"Okay. We'll make Christmas cookies."

So I got up and had a cup of coffee while Dan eagerly got out the ingredients.
Once I had my coffee I was more into the whole christmas thing and I put on some Christmas carols and my other Santa hat.
We danced around all morning making the dough, shaping the dough into reindeers, snowmen, Christmas trees, presents and mistle toe. We put the icing on as best as we could but it didn't work that well... It got a little messy.
But in the end we got there and we left the cookies out on the bench.
Now that I was wide awake I did a bit of tidying of the kitchen, while I was at it I nearly kicked over the decoration box.
That's when I realised.
Decoration box. That's an idea.
Dan and I hung up almost all the decorations around the place it was so fun, when we
Had finished all that we were worn out. But I found some time to quickly wrap his presents.
So I made each of us a cup of coffee and we sat down on the couch and flicked on the news.
" merry Christmas Dan," I wiped his hair out of his face.
"Merry Christmas Phil" we smiled, cuddled up and waited.

A/N
I havnt slept. That's cool. Sleep is boring.
ANYWAY NO POINT OF THIS AUTHORS NOTE JUST BORED SO HI
-CHICKEN XX