A different christmas //PHAN\\ (boyxboy)

Chapter 11

*DANS POV*
I couldn't sleep that night, I had this horrible feeling in my stomach.. Horrible flashbacks and just horrible... Horrible thoughts.
Phil and I were on the couch all night after watching the rest of american horror story season 1, Phil quickly fell asleep but of course I didn't, even though I was in his arms.
Phil didn't have much body warmth, but he thought i did, should He be the one in my arms next time? I started to feel a bit better now that I finally had my mind on something else.
I tilted my head a bit giving me the ability to look at the clock above the Tele, it was 5:47am. I was kind of bored of just laying there with no sleep and nothing to do. I gently slipped out of Phil's arms trying not to wake him.
I was still in the same clothes as yesterday. I walked over to the window looking out to the snow covering the very small yard out front. Everything was just so white, it looked beautiful. I've never really appreciated snow before, probably because normally I'm out in it all winter long, but now I'm actually inside where it's warm. Actually it was quite cold, I noticed the coals in the fire place. I stoked the fire warming the place up a bit and then went upstairs to Phil's bedroom grabbing some extra layers.
I felt at home here, now that it seems he loves me nearly as much as I love him. One week ago I never thought it would be like this, madly in love with a man who has given me everything I need and everything I want. Phil truly is an amazing human being.
No.
He is MY amazing human being.
I pulled out one of his Christmas sweaters, another scarf and a beanie. The rest of what I was wearing was already keeping me warm.
Just before I went back downstairs I grabbed Phil's pillow and his quilt dragging it down the stairs, and brought it over to him.
I stood over him watching him sleep for a moment, his eyelids gently closed, his pale skin was slightly rosy red, he was smiling a little, that made me happy knowing he was happy. He also had goose bumps though so yes he was cold. I lifted his head ever so slightly and placed the pillow beneath him, then I covered him with the quilt.
Of course Phil wouldn't be awake for another fair few hours, he loves his sleep. So I had to find something to do that wouldn't wake him.
I noticed the piano that I had spotted when I first came. I knew how to play, I learnt when I was younger and I swear I can remember. Still I didn't want to wake Phil though so I left it.
I'm pretty sure tomorrow is Christmas Eve, the tree still wasn't decorated, nothing was decorated, nothing felt festive except for the snow outside and this silly sweater Im wearing.
Is Christmas normally like this for Phil? I know my christmas is just sitting at a bench covered in snow.
So this is definitely a better christmas festive or not, I also wish I could give Phil a present though but offourse I have no money.
Hours past and I just sat watching snow fall. It was now 7:59am and I decided now would be a decent time to boil the kettle which I did, I also stoked the fire and made tea for Phil tea too incase he woke up.
I wonder if it bothered him that I used this place as if it were mine? Should I back off?
When I finished making the tea I placed a mug on the table in front of him, he woke up suddenly to the noise the mug made as it connected with the table.
"Morning sleepy head," I smiled trying to be cute.
"How long have you been up for?" Phil groaned rubbing the sleep out of his eyes and stretching.
"Since 5" I sat down on the couch at his feet, he noticed the quilt and pillow, then turned his head looking at the fire which was still blazing.
"You've been busy," he chuckled, "oh AND you made me tea." Phil smiled wildly.
I smiled back at his very adorable smile, "it's snowing!" I grinned even wider, "it's beautiful."
Phil sat up, "oh really? So I was thinking last night, do you wanna go out to town today? I want to get you a present."
I kind of felt nervous about that idea, back to town where I have sat for the last two years. I started freaking out again, was he going to get rid of me? Is he sick of me?
Dan stop over reacting.
I smiled and nodded.

AUTHORS NOTE
Okay okay super boring chapter my apologies but don't worry, next chapter has a little SUPRISE which should be interesting ;)
Yeah I don't know what to say but just be ready for some interesting shit to go down.