A different christmas //PHAN\\ (boyxboy)

Chapter 10

*PHILS POV*

Dan was nervous all day and it was very clear but I think near the end he calmed on a little. just a little.
we were on the train home and it was silent, even i couldnt think of something to talk about.
"nice singing in the shower this morning..." Dan smirked breaking the silence suprisingly.
shit.. he heard me. i guess im so used to be alone and singing in the shower.
i scratched the back of my head akwardly and had a litte grin on my face. i could feel my cheeks flushing red.
"oh you um... you heard me huh?" i stuttered out.
"very well too," Dan nodded. i could tell his confidence was growing a little tiny bit at a time.
"i uh i.. im just used to liv-... living alone. you...you know? and... and i" i explained.
"it was cute." he kissed me on the cheeks stopping me mid-sentence and calming me down instantly.

When we made it back to my apartment it was around 5 in the evening, I wonder if I should, or more of we should, call it our apartment? Na... It's only been 3 days what am I going on about.
We made it inside as he offered me some tea as if it was 'our' apartment, I walked up behind him wrapping my arms around dan's waist.
"You're beautiful you know that?" I asked him, he turned his head slightly giving me the opurtunity so I took it.
I kissed Dan on his cheek, which was very warm. I lifted my hand placing the back of my fingers on his cheek.
"You're quite hot," I said confused.
"Why thankyou," he responded with a smile on his face as he walked away leaving my grasp and towards the kettle.
"No I don't mean it like that well... You are very hot but I mean like body warmth too," I chuckled at his sass.
"I guess," he replied.
When he made me tea and handed me a mug I decided it was time for us to have a proper conversation.
"So Dan... If you don't mind me asking I just... Figured we are a thing now maybe you should tell me why... Like you don't need to answer but why were you.." Ofcourse I couldn't get the words out of my mouth from the fear of what his reaction could be.
"Why do I live on the streets?" Dan said for me.
I sighed, "yeah..?"
Dan sat down on the seat beside me so close our knees were slightly touching.
He took a deep breath before answering.
"I guess it's time I tell you my story.." He looked down to the ground, his face turning pale and I could tell he was nervous about this. I put my hand on his knee comforting me.
"I grew up in a broken home. My parents... Divorced, my unborn sister died and... My older brother.. Comitted.." Dan choked a little, "my older brother committed suicide when he was just... Just 15. I was 8 at the time. I had a step father, his name was Markus. He was a terrible person." Dan's eyes were sparkling with the tears forming in them. I wanted to comfort him but I didn't want to disrupt his story.
"When I was younger Markus.. He raped me."
Dan hadn't looked at me once during this whole time, I was feeling bad for asking him about this.
"My mother never found out about this though, she was working day and night while the dumb cu-" Dan stopped himself before he lost it, "my stupid step father lounged around all fucking day and when my mum was home he treated her like complete shit!"
Dan was filling with rage I could see it. I placed my hand on his shoulder.
"Dan babe calm down please you don't need to go on if this is going to upset you..." I comforted him slightly, his tense muscles relaxed a little and he took a sip from the tea.
"It's fine I want to tell you. When I was 18 I came out to Every one I knew that I was gay. Markus freaked out, he was scared because I came out about being gay that I would talk about what happened those years ago."
I myself was feeling so upset and rage ridden from this story.
"I was disowned. Markus screamed at me he didn't want anyone to know, he saw it as the perfect way to hide it. I was kicked to the streets.. That is where I have been for the past two years and... I was trying to find work for a bit but lately, I was just waiting to die. And then you saved me." Dan finally looked to me, something was in his eyes I couldn't recognise but he was staring straight back into mine. "You saved my life Phil." Dan collapsed into my arms just as the tears started streaming down his face and I wrapped my arms around him as tights as possible.
Tears were now streaming down my face too.
Look at us, we sat there hugging for about 20 minutes untill i led him to the couch where we could get comfortable.. He was still crying.
I switched on American horror story hoping to calm him down.
After a few episodes it did.
There were tear stains along his face, I kept my arms around him as his head layed on my chest.
Fuck I love him.