Love is Electric- joe and dianne one shots

acceptance

"So.....how was it?"
Joe flopped back onto the sofa, his arms reaching out for his girlfriend, grabbing her waist and pulling her onto his lap.

"Amazing.....yeah, it was really good. Insane. Incredible. They weren't lying when they said it was going to be a life changing experience"
For the past 2 weeks dianne had been filming freeze the fear, a new show for the bbc, in Italy. It was amazing and she loved it, the only downfall being they had no contact with the outside world which meant she couldnt speak to joe for 14 days. They were very used to being apart because of tours but they couldnt even call eachother, so it was the longest they had gone without hearing from the other.

"I'm glad. What kind of things did you do?"
He asked her

"They made us jump into this cold lake on the first day."
She began

"And you did that?"
He asked

"Yep"

"that's amazing. I'm so proud of you. I wouldn't beable to do that"
He said

"It was better than it sounds. There was lots of stuff with hights. We had to abseile down a cliff and stand on a plank over this lake. They made us sit in cold water and stuff. There was only one thing I couldn't do, and I regret it but it's fine I guess"
She told him

"That sounds amazing dot. What was it you couldn't you do?"
He asked

"We had to swim under ice. I was gonna do it, really. I was so close bit I freaked out and I had a bit of a moment which I wasn't surprised at and then I had to get out"
She said

"At least you gave it a go. That's the most important thing isn't it. And I'm still proud of you"
He told her

"I know. I'm glad it gave it a go and tired even though I didn't end up doing it. That's one of the things I learnt from doing it, it's ok if you can't do something. You dont need to be sad about it"

"That's so right. I've been telling you that since we got together. I'm glad you've finally got it in your head because it's so true. It's ok if you cant do something it doesnt make you any less better than...."

"Anyone else"
Dianne finshed for him

"Exactly."
He smiled as a peaceful silence fell between them. He brought his hand up to her face, twirling some of her hair around his finger before pressing the same hand to the side of her head, gently pushing it down to his shoulder so that her head rested on him.

"Its had a really big mental impact actually"
She said

"Hmm what was that love?"
Joe asked adjusting his position to get more comfortable.

"Its impacted me mentally. I feel like I've come back as a total different person"
She began

"Really? It was just ice and heights though wasnt it?"
He asked

"It was ice and heights but there were alot of mental aspects to it aswell. There was this one thing we had to do and it was literally just breathing a certain way and I literally broke down and I was shaking"
She told him

"Shaking?"

"Yeah...it was really strange but really relieving. There were a few moments where I just cried or internally cried. Not because I was struggling with how cold or how high something was but because I was overcoming things I struggle with"
She said

"What do you mean?"
Joe asked knowing this was going to be a very long deep conversation but he didn't mind. Over the 3 and a half years they had been together, they had spoken many times about eachothers insecurities and although since getting with dianne, joe came more out of his shell and overcame alot of his, dianne had remained a very internally insecure person. She had what she always described as a "mentally traumatic" couple of years in her early twenties which began with an eating disorder. However to dianne the after effect of it were worse than the actual disorder. It left her with alot of self doubt and hatred which had always stuck with her. The eating problems went after a while but the horrible feelings towards herself were the only thing which stuck and she struggled with the most.

"I've gone so long thinking certain things about myself and even though I still believe them I've realised it's ok to not be ok and that even though some things are a struggle, struggles make you stronger and you mang never overcome them but you can overcome how comfortable you are with having insecurities. And I'm not ashamed about being insecure anymore. Especially about the way I look aswell. I dont think I'm pretty but I've learnt that's a normal thing to feel about myself. Lots of people are insecure, I'm not the only person I'm the world. And I shouldn't hide the fact that my life isn't perfect because nobodys life is"
She explained

"Woah....."
Joe whispred to himself not knowing what to say buy it all.

"I know it sounds pathetic but that's how it's made me feel"

"Its not pathetic. It's real.
You're so right. And I'm really happy you've realised that. It's ok to be insecure because you can defeat it and even if you dont, so what? You're still strong just because you cant overcome one thing doesn't make you weak"
He said

"I know....I've realised that. I am strong. There are things that put me down but that doesnt make me weak"

"That's so true"
Joe smiled leaning in to kiss her. His lips rested against hers softly for a few seconds, yet was so meaningful and passionate. When they pulled away they both couldn't help but smile.

"I missed you so much"
Joe told her

"I missed you too"
Dianne smiled

"I'm happy to have you back, and to have you back knowing that your worth more than what you did before is....its nice."
He said

"I'm glad I did it. I know now....that its ok and I've accepted myself"
She told him

"For you?"
He asked

"Yeah....I've accepted myself for me"

"That's nice....what isn't nice though is that theres a massive read suitcase blocking the door which needs to be moved and unpacked because if it isn't we wont beable to leave for our dinner reservation at 7 tonight"
He told her, the smile on her face growing even more.

"You're too cute, I'll have to move it and take it upstairs. But that means you'll be down here by myself"
She began as she stood up.
She then took his hand and pulled him off the sofa.

"Unless you'll come and help me"
She said

"Of course I will my love"
He told her

"Thank you"
She placed her hand on his shoulder, pulling him closer to her body and then leaned in so their chests were touching. She rested his head in the crook of his neck, pressing a soft kiss to his jawline.

"I've missed you jospeh"

"I've missed you more......."