THE DARE | BWWM 18+ (editing)

xvii - mall chronicles

I R I S

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Did Leo fuck me again before I went back to my apartment yesterday? Yes.

Did he eat me out until my legs were shaking? Yes.

Do I feel like he's hiding something from me? Maybe.

Am I going to ask him? No.

Why? When we were laying in bed after he tore me apart, he kept looking at me and talking in riddles. He kept hinting that there are things about him I won't like when I know.

I did the reasonable thing and asked him if he cheated on me, because trauma. He said he didn't, which is why we had round 2 and 3. He fucked those thoughts straight out of my head.

But there are things about me that I haven't told him either. Really bad things. So I understand why he's hesitant because it's not easy opening up to someone you care about. You're always thinking about them possibly judging you or rejecting you. I don't do well with rejection so I have to plan accordingly on when to tell Leo my deepest darkest secrets.

It's also why I'm not pushing him to open up to me, because I want him to tell me everything when he's ready. Granted I'm not going to wait years on end, but it's only been a couple of weeks since we became official, so there's lots of time.

As promised, I am hanging out with Josh today at the mall. We've hung out almost every day that we were both free and it's very therapeutic. We get along well and we never stop laughing. Jada and Skylar went home to visit their families, and Amari went back to Washington to look for Zane. Needless to say, we haven't talked much but we're still friends I guess. Just not best friends. It doesn't feel like it right now.

I get dressed in a casual outfit and wait for Josh to meet me at my apartment. I pick up my phone to text Leo.

Baby❤️

Chicken nuggets is not a
healthy dinner choice 😂

uh yes it is 🤨

Yesterday 11:55 PM

Goodnight bellissima🤍

Goodnight babe🥰

Today 11:28 AM

Good morning dolcezza
Why do you wake up so late?

Leave me alone🙃I'm up now
And I'm going out with Josh
so I might be a little MIA today

Alright, be safe bambina😘

I will babe, you too
Laterrrrr🤍

Leo and I have an understanding that as long as we update each other throughout the day, and talk at the end of the night, then we can still stay connected even when we're apart. It works very well because we're never out of the loop on things.

I hear my doorbell ring and I make my way to open the door.

"Hey girl," Josh exclaims as soon as I open the door. He throws his arms around me and pulls me in for a hug.

"Hey Joshy," I reply as I return the hug. He pulls back and starts to smile at me.

"What?" I laugh.

"You had sex again," he sings. "You have new hickeys on your neck." Leo loves to leave his marks on me.