THE DARE | BWWM 18+ (editing)

xxiv - i am a killer

TW: BRIEF MENTION OF RAPE AND SEXUAL ASSAULT

L E O N A R D O

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I miss her.

Fuck, I miss her.

I never miss people, except my parents. But ugh, Iris hasn't left my thoughts for even a second. How can one person occupy so much brain space?

Not only do I miss her, but I have been kicking myself for all the terrible shit I said to her. What the fuck is wrong with me? Saying that she only stayed with me for the money? God, I'm so fucked up.

No way she'd ever forgive me. She shouldn't because I know I wouldn't. Am I so incapable of accepting the good things in life that I had to push Iris away to the brink of no return?

My heart was tightening in my chest as she walked away, but I couldn't stop my mouth "I'll get the door for you?" What the fuck was that? I should've grabbed her hand and pulled her back to me. I should've kissed our argument away. I should've been a good man for her, but I wasn't. And it's all my fault.

I wish I could take back that night. I wish I could just build a time machine and just talk to her differently. Just take everything back. But life doesn't work like that, and now I lost my girl because I was too stupid to hold on to her and tell her the truth about me. I want to call her and reach out but I doubt she'd care about me. I doubt she'd even want to hear me out.

Bella is the only thing that's been keeping me sane. Her, and killing people. Which is why I just left her with Xavier at the house and now I'm here. Killing a rapist. On a Thursday night.

God, I'm fucked up.

I mean what am I doing? Spilling blood only suppresses my anger for a little bit before I'm getting angry again. I need a therapist, but don't we all?

I take a look at the bastard kneeling in front of me. Pleading for his life.

"I'm sorry. I won't do it again!" He cries as I hold the gun to his head. "Please stop," he continues to cry.

"You're so pathetic," I laugh. "You want me to stop? Did you stop when that girl was begging you to? Did you stop when she was bleeding in the alley? Did you stop?" I say as he looks at me with pleading eyes.

"No, I didn't and I'm sorry."

"You didn't! So why should I?" I ask as I cock the gun.

"Any last words?"

"I'm sorry."

"Yeah, me too." And with those last words, I shoot three bullets in his chest.

I hear something faint behind me. Movement or maybe a gasp? Keeping my hand on the gun, I turn around and see her.

"Iris?" I ask because she looks stuck. Her mouth is slightly open with shock and surprise, and she's not blinking. Her hands are slightly shaking and that's when I take her in. She looks hot.

Wait, fuck!

I know she just watched me kill someone but she looks so fucking delicious. The first time I see her in damn near three weeks, and she looks this fucking good? I am a mess. But oh shit! She just watched me kill someone! Wait how did she get this address? How did she open the door? What is going on?

"Xavier gave me a key and told me to come to talk to you when I was ready," she says after licking her now dry lips. "He also gave me this address."

"Was I speaking out loud again?" I ask her trying to avert her attention from the dead body in my living room.