After Lizzie's text things didn't change. Part of me regrets that I didn't text back, I wonder what she had to say. I don't think that matters now, but a part of me hoped she would reach out again, but she never did.
October comes around and it's been over a month since Lizzie and I have even had a conversation. Lizzie's play is today and i've debating on if should go or not. I know we aren't friends, but I told her i'd be there, but things are different now. We would see each other in class and throw in a few smiles but nothing further than that. It's weird thing's being like this with her. How am I this hung up over a girl I haven't know for too long? What is it about her that I can't get her out of my head?
"You should go." Nicole says bringing me out of my thoughts as I lay in bed. Somehow this girl always knows what i'm thinking.
"Is that a good idea? Her and I aren't really friends anymore. It would be weird wouldn't it?"
"I think you should go." Nicole responds.
"But what if Boyd is there? I don't want to make a fool of myself." I scoff.
"You told her you'd be there Y/N. I've know you very well and you're not one to bail." Nicole says in a soothing voice.
"You have a point. Will you come with me?" I ask with a pout on my face.
"I'm sorry. I have dinner plans with Caleb. Plus I think it's best you go on your own." she says with a guilty look.
I scoff as I throw my face against the pillow.
"You don't even have to speak to her. What matters is that you'll be there. Supporting her. Even if it's from a distance." Nicole says.
"I just miss her." I say with a sad voice.
"I know Y/N, I know." Nicole says as she gives me a pity look.
I lay in bed for a while. I put in headphones and begin to play Chasing Pavements by Adele. As always, when I begin to pay attention to the words. I begin to relate to every word. The words invade my mind. A part of me is saying that I should just move on. Another is saying to not let her go. I lay in bed frustrated, debating if I want Lizzie in my life, although I don't think that's the point. I decide to go to the play. Maybe seeing her will clear the thoughts in my head.
I get up from bed and take nice relaxing shower. I go to dry and style my hair. I put on a little more makeup than usual so I can look my best. I choose my outfit and decide to with something casual.
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"U-Uh o-okay guess i'm heading out now." I say nervously. Nicole makes her way over to me.
"Hey, like I said you don't have to speak with her. It's just nice of you to show up okay?" Nicole says with a comforting voice.
"Thank you N." I say sincerely as she pulls me in for a hug.
