This poetry collection is a path, a way from breaking, through healing, and finding light again, just to be lost in this fog again.
On the way here I learnt a lot, and even though I have multiple scars now, I wouldn't change where I came from, and...
Here again in rainy March Since then we've gone so far In the same park I met you first On my way I saw this little girl
Dark curls in her face from the breeze Damp cheeks under her brown irises At first I couldn't even recognize her With a lump in my throat, I moved closer
Her gaze found mine, filled with hope I shook my head, knew it'll be hard to cope Braced myself to say the heavy words Convince her they won't be together
Though I knew the truth all well I couldn't hide the impact he left Saw the old pain under her lashes Looked back on who I used to be
She wouldn't stop the crying But I couldn't keep on lying Tears pricked my eyes They're silent after all this time
I held her hand as we walked around Spilling my emotions wasn't allowed I had to be strong for my young self Remembering how hard it was back then
The bald trees stood vulnerable White lilies decorated her shirt Strolled past the little pond Where I remember his last response
Wrapped my jacket around her figure But I'm aware, nothing will stop her shiver Only faded colors through the fog There was nothing we could enjoy
She let me lead the way The benches for her were foreign Then I found ourselves crowded With all too familiar trees
There he was
Standing there in his sweater The fabric light as feather I almost let her go to jump in his embrace But I won't make the same mistake
His chest gently rising and falling Oh, how much I miss you, darling And like you heard me, a small smile Crept up your face, your teeth shine
But you saw nothing but hurt I blinked rapidly so you wouldn't be blurred My hands were shaking just to touch you To finally cross the line that I once drew
Her glossed over and pleading eyes Told me she couldn't put it aside But we both deserved this moment For us, it was never over
With a soft squeeze I turned us on our heels On wobbly legs walking out Knowing we'll come back around
Even after all this time It's you who I always loved We're here 3 years apart But nothing changed my heart
2021.09.29.
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