Hearts on Hire (Completed)

Promise Of Peace

Mew was eating breakfast when Kit asked him about Gulf. "Where's Gulf? Haven't seen him in a while. Are you guys fighting?"

"No."

"Then why hasn't he visited even once after coming back from the trip?"

"He must be busy."

With that said, Mew took off for work. His semester break had started so he was working full time for his internship in a company. He had joined last week and had acclimated to the working environment. Off had joined a different company for the internship. Things were back to pretty much like before. He hadn't talked to Gulf after that night neither had Gulf tried to contact him which he appreciated. He wasn't ready to talk with him or anyone about that night.

He had cried for hours and when he couldn't cry anymore he had decided to just go on with his life instead of overthinking like before. He didn't hate Gulf and with time even his anger had disappeared. He was upset with how things had panned out between them but he didn't resent anyone for that. He understood that both of them were at fault and had just ended up hurting each other.

He had talked with Kale and told him everything truthfully. Kale was hurt and angry which was justified and decided to break off their friendship. It did hurt Mew to lose such a good friend but he understood why Kale did that. Kale said he forgave Mew but couldn't continue to be his friend and maybe that was the best decision. At times we forgive people for our own mental peace and cut them out of our life to maintain that peace.

Mew wasn't completely okay but he wasn't in agonizing pain anymore. Gulf was such a integral part of his life that the thought of losing him had been excruciatingly painful. Maybe that's why they were at this point. A relationship should never be built on fear, even if that is fear of losing someone. When they decided to start this relationship, he should have trusted in himself and Gulf. That constant thought of being abandoned kinda made him paranoid.

Sometimes love isn't enough to sustain a relationship. It requires a lot more than that. Trust, faith, communication, respect, understanding, they all are equally important. They were too much in love to think about how it was becoming toxic. Whenever Gulf would do something he didn't like or deny him something, Mew would throw a tantrum or accuse him of not loving him enough.

Now, that he was thinking clearly he realized that's not how it works in a relationship. You don't get angry or upset before you make clear what's wrong. He had thought a lot over these past few weeks and had reached a decision. He decided they needed to talk so he gave Gulf a call asking him to meet. After work, Mew went to Gulf's apartment.

"Mew."

"Gulf, we need to talk."

"Yes, have a seat. Would you like to drink something?"

"Water would do."

"Okay."

"Let me start first. I'm not cheating on you. I'm sorry about all that thing with Kale. I knew he liked me and yet I decided to take advantage of that to make you jealous. It was a terrible thing to do. I have already explained everything to Kale and he had decided to break off our friendship."

"What? Are you okay, Mew?" Gulf asked in concerned tone.

"Yeah, I'm fine. I deserved that after treating him like that."

"It's never easy losing a friend."

"I'll get over it. All those posts were just my stupid attempt at making you jealous. I was angry because of that dating scandal and moreover upset because you didn't even explain anything to me."

"I'm not cheating on you either."

"I know. I just wanted an explanation. Knowing Jessica was with you made my insecurity resurface. I was paranoid that you would leave me for her and it made me act out." Mew finished his explanation.

Gulf said, "I'm sorry for not paying any attention to you while I was on the trip. I know a simple text didn't take that long and I could've managed at least that but everything was too much for me to even do that."

Gulf explains everything that had happened on the trip in detail.

"Still I should have explained that article. You deserved an explanation and I failed you there. When I saw those posts, I admit I felt extremely jealous but I knew you would never cheat on me. I trust you completely but when I saw that pic with both of you wearing couple rings I completely lost it."

"Kale got that ring for me as a gift. I didn't know he had a matching ring."

"I should've confronted you before I did anything. I should have talked to about our issues before I kissed you that night. I was out of line."

"We are boyfriends. You can kiss me."

"You're my boyfriend, not my property. I don't own you. Even if we were husbands, I have absolutely no right to lay even a single finger on you unless you want it."

"Yes, I'm glad you think that."

"Never for a moment have I thought I own you in any way. Even when we were fake boyfriends under that contract, I respected you as an individual. I never thought that I owned you because I was paying you. You're more than just a body to me, Mew. I love you as a person and even if we never get to be physically intimate I would still love you just as much."

Mew couldn't hold back tears falling down his cheeks, "Those words mean world to me, Gulf. But what you did that night still hurts."

"I know, bub. That's why I won't give any excuses. I should have never treated you like that and though it was never my intention to do that there still I should have never even let you think that."

"I was scared when you took me to the restroom."

"I know. That look in your eyes, I never wanted to see it for me. That's when I knew I messed up. I messed up something so beautiful."

"Even though I was angry and scared, a part of me was sure you would never hurt me. When I asked you to stop, I knew you would. I knew my no meant no to you."

"It was heartbreaking to see you break down like that because of me. That's why I didn't reach out to you after that day. You needed time to think. And time is something I can give you in abundance."

"Yes, thanks for giving me space. I thought a lot and I have decided we should take a break."

"Okay."

"I still love you though."

"I love you too, bun. You need time to yourself without a relationship weighing on you. This break doesn't mean I don't love anymore or my love would vanish. It won't. It would still be here and whenever you think it's okay, you can come back."

Mew sobbed, " I really l-love you."

"Sometimes in life we need to distance ourselves from people we don't want to lose. Hastily forgiving each other and getting back together may seem better but we could end up hurting each other worse.

You may resent me subconsciously or you may forgive me too readily. When you finally feel at peace with everything and you can look at me not remember that night, we can try again." Gulf said with a smile.

"You can take your time too. Trying to make you jealous must've shaken your trust in me a little. You can come back to me when there's not even a little crack."

"Even if we are on break, I'm still going to love you and worry about you. I would still wonder if you're eating properly or not."

"I would miss you and think of you. Our love wouldn't go away."

"It won't. Because if love is anything, it's patient."

"I will wait." Mew promised.

"I will wait too, bun."