CLOSER || EDDIE MUNSON

Part 20

(Warning! This chapter contains seriously heavy material. It may trigger some of you so please be safe while reading.

Enjoy! :) -C)

I stood in front of his trailer, face lit up from the blue porch light. Tears were streaming down my face, breath shallow. I felt all of the pain from not seeing him crash over me like a wave. I needed to fix this, I couldn't stand the thought of not having him with me. He lit up my life, made me feel things I've never felt before. I needed him with every fiber of my being.

And I had to tell him. I needed to tell him everything I'd been holding back all this time.

I heard footsteps leading to the rusty door. I then heard a lock click, and the door handle move.
Anxiety overtook me, making me cry more if that was even possible. I was glued to the spot, thoughts going hundreds of miles a minute in my head. I felt as if I were going to explode.

Then, the door opened.

I was met with the sight of a shaken up Eddie, mouth slightly parted. I could see wet lines on his cheeks, showing he had been crying too. His eyes were puffy and swollen, just like they were the last night I saw him. I noticed his hair was more disheveled than usual, like he hadn't taken care of himself at all. It broke me even more, I felt regret and pure hatred for myself course through me. I started hyperventilating, trying to talk through it.

(Play I Found by Amber run on loop now)

"Eddie-" I swallowed, gasping for air.

"Please just, let me in." I met his eyes, seeing a broken soul behind them. I could see all of the cracks in the shell of who he used to be.

He stepped out of the way, wordlessly. I noticed his hands were extremely shaky, pupils dilated. I stepped in and sat on the couch, the same one I was on when I first told him I had feelings for him. He sat on the other chair, position the exact same as it was then.
I was still crying, trying to stop myself from breaking down at the sight of him despite knowing it was useless. I heard him sniffle and clear his throat, his voice sounding like it cracked in the process. He started bouncing his leg.
And just like I did then, I poured out my broken heart and soul. Not leaving out a single detail.

"Eddie I'm so sorry, I know a sorry doesn't make up for any of what I've ever done to you just-"

I paused, noticing his entire body slightly shaking. His leg bounced faster. He seemed to ignore me, avoiding eye contact in every way.
I saw a few tears fall onto his jeans, creating small wet patches.

"I'm so sorry, I don't know how I've been so stupid. You're the best thing that's ever happened to me Eddie and I- I cant lose you. You're the light of my life and I'm- I'm completely lost without you."

I stuttered, still hyperventilating as tears fell even faster.

"Eddie I am so fucking in love with you. You make my days better and you make the happiest I've ever been. I need you in my life, you're all I've ever wanted and more."

I took a breath, silence filling the room. Eddie stopped bouncing his leg, head lifting to face me. His face was scrunched in a way as he began to cry too. I heard little hiccups leave his lips, he started to shake a bit more.