Everybody tells me that am lucky . That I have people that love me. That I have achieved my dreams and that I dont need anything else. But if only they knew how tough it has been maybe they wouldn't have said all that.
Every day felt like torture filled with endless loneliness. And i didnt know how to stop it or even ignore that feeling. I'd lock myself in my room most of the days just to get away from everyone but hoping that this feeling wont take long. Hoping that at least one person would come up to me and be by my side but unfortunately no one noticed my broken smile.
I was broken, shattered, and ground into the earth. I wanted to heal trust me...but words weren't as strong .
I was willing to open my eyes and see that the road to better things is challenging and full of effort, that's good, that's how this broken world will get fixed but whenever I tried I fell back.
Part of me didn't want to give up though I struggled so hard for myself. I wanted to make myself proud because only I understood my pain and suffering and hope that one day I'll wake up and not feel lonely at all. I hoped that I'll understand that this feeling comes and goes and the clouds that were separating me from happiness will disperse in seconds.
As time passed by, I began to think about what lesson I could learn from it...i could close my eyes and feel the positivity flow, recharging my inner self until they rekindled and sparked.
And where there was no light, was now filled with hope.
And hope was the only ladder I needed all along
Now i embrace myself with love .
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