He promised us...

Wednesday 18th may

its a typical Wednesday, I'm sat here thinking about that night once again, none of the house know about it but I think I'm finally ready to tell them what that man did to me. its been 3 months today since it happened and its affected me so badly...

I slipped on a hoodie hiding the deep cuts along my arms and wipe away the tears and put on a fake smile. I wasn't too ready to tell Baylee yet and will was at work, the only two people I could tell were J and riley, I drag myself downstair to the lounge where J was sat. I thought to myself: "I'm sure he will listen, it's me, he's bound to right, I mean I am like his little brother" 

i move closer toward him, now able to hear him rage about his game along with Leo and Ethan, who where staying the night. "j" I manage to squeak out while my head fills with overloading thoughts. "what Daz?" he says in an annoyed tone "cant you see I'm playin apex with these two". "right, yeah, sorry" I mumble as tears fill my eyes and I run back upstairs. while doing so I bump into riley who was walking to the kitchen. "afternoon, Daz, nice to see you're awake" they laugh while continuing forward. "wait a second" they stand still "what's wrong" "oh uhm nothing" I stutter while wiping my tears away. they walk toward me, grab my wrist and drag me into their room. 

they close the door and turn to face me. "right, what's up" she responds wiping my tears away with their sleeve. I sob harder, now, not even able to form a proper sentence, all I could think of was the yelling of the men in the pub of that night, so j yelling wasn't helping at all. "Hey, hey, hey, come here" they say while pulling me into a hug. "I cant do this riley, I cant live with all that goes on in my head", they remained silent, "you know that night I came home from work all upset and blamed it on my boss", they nod while texting the house group chat, "I uhm, that night I was sexually assaulted by some customers". "wait what!" they sounded concerned, "did you not think to tell your boss??". I shook my head as tears streamed down my already tear stained face. the next thing I know, I hear a knock on Riley's door, its Will and Baylee. 

"What are you guys doing?" I mumbled through tears, "well, we saw what riley put in the groupchat and wanted to see if you where okay" Baylee responds while handing me spencer bear. "i left work early and got your favorite snack too" will said while smiling. we all turn around to see J looking guilty. "Daz, I'm sorry" he says walking toward me with his arms outstretched.  i stand up from riley bed and hug J as tight as i can, his hugs are like a safety blanket. "i love you J" i say still in his arms. "Are you doing okay, need us to stay with you?" he replies. "no, i think im okay, i think imma just go to sleep", "alright daz, message us if things start getting bad, okay?" i nod, wriggle out of j's hug and go to my room.