Trust

Begin Again

You don't understand,
How much it hurts.
The pain slips through my fingers
Like a friend that lingers
Then
leaves.

Leaving you all alone, destroying your inner home,
Your peace,
The walls you've built,
Just cease

My heart aches,
My body shakes,
I'm wide awake,
Thinking about you.

I think I really miss you,
You and your smile,
And your laugh,
And your style.

It takes me a while,
To take it all in,

Can we begin again?

I wanted to be the apple to your pie,
Or the one who gives you the twinkle in your eye,
But now that I think about it all I can do is sigh.
My heart is broken in two,
I wish you'd make it new.

But I know that when feelings are gone,
I'll stay up till dawn,
Thinking about what we could've have.
Unrequited feelings are the worst,
It's almost like a curse,
That makes you thirst,
For the other's love.

It hurts to think that it isn't me,
Can't you see?
I thought we were meant to be,
I guess it was all a fantasy.

Lost in the encampments of my mind,
I wish to redefine,
These feelings for,
You

Waiting is pointless I think,
Because this status is like indelible ink.
But you,

Oh you,

Make me change my mind with a single wink.

The pain rips through my chest,
When I think of the jumbled up mess.
Is this a test?
To see how far I can go before I completely E X P L O D E
Into a million tiny fragments
Or magma from a volcano

I just need some one to talk to ,
But there's no one there,
I never knew it could hurt this bad,
I never knew I could be so sad,
Infuriated,
Frustrated,
Irritated.

The point is I hate this feeling, a lot.