Silent Pain : Landokuhle's Story

Continuation of Chapter 02

Continuation #02

Mom : "You okay baby?" She asks before starting the car.

Me : "I should be asking you that mama. I'm sorry for acting like a spoilt brat and not considering you when you are the one struggling. I'm sorry for my selfishness mama. I want you to know that I'll support you and be with you during this time and I promise to not stress you. I love you mama." She smiles with tears glistening in her eyes then squeezes my thigh.

Mom : "Thank you sthandwasami." She starts the car and drives off. I play some of our favorite music as she drives. She drives past a pharmacy and goes inside alone then returns fast with a brown paperbag which I assume is her medication before driving off.

Mom : "You hungry? I know I am." She says opening her purse as she orders through the McDOnalds drive-thru.

Me : "A foldover meal with nuggets and a chocolate Sunday." She orders two of what I said and another three XLarge meals , I guess for dad and the boys. We collect our order and driver off after she placed the food carefully in the backseat. I eat my ice Cream as she drives home.

Mom : "Aren't you supposed to be in school?"

Me : "Nope! I finished my last paper the day before yesterday." She frowns

Mom : "You didn't come with any of your clothes though yesterday."

Me : "Well I was out with some classmates and we were around home and I missed y'all even more so I can home." She rolls her eyes.

Mom : "How nice of you to actually 'miss' us." I laugh.

Me : "You becoming like your husband now." She rolls her eyes and parks the car in the driveway and we both get out.

Mom : "Carry the food." I take it from the backseat and follow her in. We find dad in the lounge , he rushes to mom and hugs her tightly when he sees us.

Dad : "Baby I'm sorry. I'm really sorry for being so insensitive and inconsiderate of your feelings. I'm an ass I know."

Mom : "You my ass." They both laugh and kiss , I roll my eyes and throw myself on the couch. They both sit next to me , I grab my food and start eating while watching tv in silence.

Dad : "What did the doctor say?"

Mom : "Can I eat first , I'm famished." She says grabbing the doggy bag and takes out her food then passes it to dad. We all eat in silence , when we done mom asks for a glass of water and I go get it for her. She takes her medication.

Dad : "Baby tell me phela."

Mom : "I'm on stage 4 of ovarian cancer and I did research yesterday , if I go under surgery then I might not make it , there's a very low rate of survival with this kind of cancer. The doctor said Survival rate of five years is 30 something percent but according to my research it's 17% or something so I may be lucky and fall under that five year survival rate." I'm in her arms crying silently.

Dad : "So what do we do now?" His voice is breaking.

Mom : "Find a gynecologic oncologist that will treat me and confirm this."

Dad : "Okay."

Mom : "Once we've confirmed this then we can tell the kids and everyone else."

Dad : "I'm sorry for acting like that yesterday babe." She nods. I sit up and mom looks at me then kisses my forehead.

Mom : "Don't be so sad baby." I just lay my head on her.

Dad : "Excuse me , I have to make some calls." He says walking away.

Mom : "I saw your plastics yesterday and that can only mean one thing." I laugh and nod.

Me : "Go choose a movie , I'll come with everything."

Mom : "Be fast." I go grab a tub of Ice cream in the fridge , a bottle of wine and a packet of chips then walk to the cinema room.

Dad : "Where you going with all of that?"

Me : "Girl time." He rolls his eyes.

Dad : "Whatever."

Me : "Can you please order wings with lots of fries? Please daddy." I plead giving him the puppy eyes , he nods.