He Hates Me

18

" Will you stop pestering me, go back to trish I don't need you here." i said I hardened my face. Kailangan mapaalis ko siya.

" Will you shut up, your not pregnant but your act is suspicious." he said " are you really not pregnant Silverian?" he ask then glared at me.

" even if I'm pregnant it's none of your business anymore, sa iyo na mismo nanggaling na nagpapagamit ako sa ibang lalaki, kaya pwede ba uma—" i didn't finish my words when he throw the flower vase near him.

Its broke into pieces, his whole face is red his fuming mad. Napaatras ako sa takot, he slowly walk towards me." stop digging what happen in the past, now whether  you like it or not your coming with me." he said in authorities. I wanted to say no pero nawala ang tapang ko kasabay ata ng pagkabasag ng flower vase.

Nag-init ang gilid ng mata ko, I look down and nod my head, Nasaan na ang tapang mo silver? Bakit hindi mo siya masigawan ngayon?

" why did you care for me all of a sudden Ezekiel?" it slip in my mouth but I don't regret I look up to him to see his reaction.

But his face is in poker face. " because your my wife." he answer i lough note the sarcastic.

" noon pa man asawa mo na ako Kiel mag-asawa na tayo but you never care for me like this, parang mas gusto mo pa nga ata noon na mamatay na lang ako diba?" i said tearing up I wipe my tears using the bed cover.

Last day I promised to myself that I will not cry again in the same reason, that I will never cry because of him again.

Promise are really made to be broken.

" i did. " he said I expected that pero masakit pa din marinig na galing mismo sa kanya. Tumalikod ako sa gawi niya dahil feeling ko maiyak na naman ako.

Naramdaman long lumubog ang kama sa likuran ko. " but everything change silver." he added my forehead cease. Humarap ako ulit sa kanya his facing me.

"what do you mean?" I ask him confused of what  he just said. Halos ilubog ko ang ulo ko sa unan when he leaned in and his lips land on my forehead napapikit ako at dinama ang labi niya na nasa noo ko.

" I'm sorry." i couldn't move of what I've just heard. Did he just apologise lumayo siya ng konti his one left hand hold me in the side of my face. I can't say his sincere.

What if his just doing this because he plan to, but my heart is melting. Parang unit-uniting natitibag ang galit sa puso ko sa kanya.

Unti-unti natitibag ang hinarang kong pader sa kanya. " i know I've been a jerked, but let me take care of you." he said his hands move down to my flat belly. " and our baby? " then he added his looking in my eyes.

Is this real? am I not dreaming? dahil kung nananginip ako please lang sana hindi na ako magising. I want to stay here na kahit papaano ay may nararamdaman ako sa asawa ko.

My tears roll down my face." do you know what your doing Ezekiel? Because if not please stop your giving me a false hope, please I want a peace life." i said sunod-sunod ang naging pagluha ko. Bumangon ako at umalis sa kama dumeretso ako sa banyo. Hindi niya ako sinundan.

Does that mean he didn't meant anything from what he said. Napaupo ako sa likod ng pinto ng banyo.

I covered my mouth with my both hands para hindi marinig ang hagulgul ko.

Why does its easy for him to make me suffer? I am starting a new life but fucking shit ginugulo naman niya ako.

I wanted to move-on but here he is changing my mind with his words. Nililito niya ako pinapaasa na naman.