misery

part 12

we woke up in the morning. still in hug. i looked at him. uh his light brown eyes, i love them so much. i can look at them all the time. he looked into my eyes. we had a romantic eyes contact. i never loved someone like i do now. he stopped look at me and got up. i watched him how he got his clothes. he didnt looked at me until he realized that im watching him.

"is something wrong?"

"no its... just youre so beautiful i cant stop watching you. maybe its weird that im always watching you, but... i just cant stop."

"oh, Paulie... i love you." then he stopped and turned to the door.

"you wont wait for me?"

"oh sorry i will." he akwardly smiled

then i got up and dressed. he gave me a kiss and then he saw there is something i wanted to told him.

"you wanna tell me something?"

"oh actually its nothing just i havent seen my father so long, i wanna visit him. but i dont wanna bother you with that. so its just nothing."

"oh i can go with ya."

"i dunno John... my father doesnt like you so much. it can happen bad."

"dont worry Paulie. it wont be bad." he smiled.

"i think i go by myself just i havent seen my little brother and dad so i hope you will get it."

"no i dont please i wanna go with you!" he shouted a little.

"oh John dont do this to me.." i said quietly

"i think its good idea! maybe your father will likes me more."

"okay if you think so."

"hahah yeeeaaa."
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"hello dad, Paul mhm John will go with me."

"huh he really go with ya?"

"yeah he really wants to see you."

"okay and when you'll come?"

"ehm today we will come for dinner? what you think?"

"yea sure i'll make something!"

"okey see'ya!"

then i hung up.

i came to John kinda sad. he looked to me and gave me his look like 'everything will be okay' but i dont think so. i hope nothing will happen. it will be just dinner with my father and brother.

"so when we will go? luv."

"i told him we will come to the dinner so i think we should get ready."

"okay im ready. are you Paulie?"

"not sure. im just worring..."

"dont worry Paul it will be just fine."

"okay i believe you John."

i sat on my bed and put my head into my hands. then i felt something touched my hand. i looked at John and he wanted to kiss. so we kissed but it was a 'cold kiss'.

"oh c'mon Paul dont worry. if you will worry too much, something will probably happen. just calm down. relax. now lets go to visit your father!"

"yeah im going."

then we sat into his car and went to dads house. we went to the doors and looked at each other. i knocked on them and my father was looking at us.

"hello i havent seen you so long. come in!"