misery

part 10

i turned around and saw wild pig. oh god what will i do? i thought. I stood and didn't move. I thought maybe he would leave, but he didnt. he looked like he was looking for cubs. It scared me a little of, what I was saying I was scared out of my mind. it ran closer to me and I suddenly started running. I ran with all my might to be gone as soon as possible. I looked back and didnt see the pig. I was relieved and stopped. I was surprised that it suddenly stood in front of me. I couldn't move, my breath held, and I just stared ahead. he came closer to me and it started squealing. i shouted a little. suddenly the cubs came running and they all ran away. I had to deal with what happened for a while. I rested my hands on my feet, wondering if I would stand or run home quickly. i chose the second way. i started running home.

i opened the doors of my house. it was midnight. boys were in their rooms and i quietly came into my room. i sat on my bed and smiled about it. this was crazy. it could kill me. i wasnt tired at all, but i didnt know what to do. bute then i got an idea. i'll check John.

i came to his doors. they were closed, so i knocked on them. no respond, so i just opened them. John was already sleeping. i sat on his bed and woke him up.

"John? wake up!" I whispered

"huh who's this? Paul? you are here?"

"obviously i am." a stupid question is answered with a stupid answer.

"haha funny. where have you been?"

"i just needed a little walk. y'know? but you wont believe what happend to me!"

"hey Macca? can you please tell me this tomorrow? im really tired."

"oh sure..."

"but... do you wanna stay with me?"

"no thanks.."

and then i went to my room. i lay on the bed and watched the ceiling. then i heard a knock on the door.

"come in."

"but i wanna stay with you. may i?"

i was thinking for a while. "sure you can Lennon."

"thanks Mcharmney." he laughed.

"oh piss of." i laughed.

he lay next to me and hugged me.

"Paul? im sorry. i promise i dont have any hide places anymore. everything is gone. i promise."

"you shouldn't do it for me but for yourself. y'know, it is your life. but im glad you stopped."

"I want to be with you as long as possible. that's why I'm doing it." then he hugged me even more and fall asleep.
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we decided go for walk. i hoped no one will see us. some hysterical fans, god i hate it. sometimes i wish i just have normal life. just minding my own business and no running fans. so we decided to walk at night. everyone is sleeping, right? was 12 pm and we went outside. we didnt see someone so we calmly went to the road. we laughed really too much. i was scared someone could heard us.

"hey Johnny, we shouldnt be that loud."

"sorry Macca, i will try."

then we laughed harder then before. he told me lot of jokes. he was so funny. i could listened him for hours. so i did. then he came to me closer and try to hold my hand

"i dont think its good idea. there can be someone and see us."

"oh come on. dont be silly. everyone is sleeping now."

"okay John, if someone see us, it will be your fault."

then we hold our hands. we walked to the strawberry fields. no one was here. just peacfull quiet. we lay on the grass and watched the stars. i showed him some that i knew how they were named. he didnt know much stars just a few.

"i wanna spend with you all my life."

"you really wanna John Lennon?"

"yes i do. you're just i cant even explain it. youre so perfect. you dont have any mistakes."

"i do John and you know it." i smiled.

"no you dont and if you have some mistakes they are just so small that i cant even see them."

"haha John you cant see at all."

"hey piss off!" he laughed.

i lay on his chest. he was playing with my hair and I didn't want this moment to end. these are moments that later turn to warm colors in your memory and you just smile when you remember them. but everything has to end.

"hey Macca we have to go."

"no we dont John i dont wanna."

"yeah c'mon tomorrow we have to finish our songs."

"i thought we finished them."

"no we didnt. we have to do them better and Ringo and Geo must help us y'know."

"oh i dont wanna go home..."

then we kissed.

"maybe we can stay there for a little bit longer, love."