I'm in lust with someone I know I shouldnt be having feelings for....
I say lust cause there is just something about him
We work together....
When i first started i thought he was handsome enough looking but i respected him more for how he did his job not for his looks....
He's very popular among the woman and he knows it ....
Ive never been into boys who all the girls liked, never been one to care....
I hardly gave him a second glance when I started working....
But I had my eye on another coworker at the time that I didn't care to notice him to much....
Other guy had a girlfriend though so off limits....
I decided I didn't need guys...
But for some reason I couldn't keep my eyes off of him...
I just felt this pull...
My gaze would fall upon him and I couldn't not stare....
Why did I feel this way?
Only recently has he become my new obsession....
He acknowledges me now gives me a head nod....
But I tend to stare at him blankly....
And oh when I smiled at him on his birthday....
I had never seen him smile like that ever....
My heart stopped as I willed my cheeks not to redden.....
But damn could that man stop hearts with that smile....
I had never seen a whole face smile from him ever before and I observed him many times.....
He always had a sly smirk plastered on his face....
One that pissed me off to no ends....
He knew....
He knew he was the talk of the workplace....
The eye candy.....
And he loved it....
Basked in it...
It pissed me off....
I hate this feeling.....
It's something I've never felt before.....
I've tried started conversations or make jokes and he gives a small chuckle sometimes.....
Ugh....
Why did you look at me when you were talking to that woman at work who has made it obvious she wants you.....?
Basically I'm dtf..................................definitely.................................
Wtf stop making me confused....
Your 6 years older then me.....
Fuck stop looking at me......
I'm hoping you have a girlfriend now....
Then I could get over you.....
I can't stand this need I have to be in the same space as you....
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My Truth
NonfiksiWhen I was 13 & 14 I wanted to Die When I was 15 I was Numb When I was 16 I felt Broken When I was 17 everything was out of reach When I was 18 I learned to move on When I was 19 I had to let go When I was 20 I finally felt free As A 21 year old I...
