I'm Here

chapter 21

He stood and went downstairs after we talked. He was mad. I understand that, but everything his dad said was the truth. I guess he didn't agree.
Don't you?
Don't you think it's true?
I mean come on, why would I not be?
I've only had sex with ten plus people. He told me none of it was my fault. It is. If I would have fought harder I wouldn't be here. I'm going crazy. I start talking to myself sometimes now. I get horrible scenarios in my head. Soon this will all be over. I hope anyways.
I was resting against the headboard on the bed. I dozed off.
I woke in a dark room. I heard voices. One was Aarons. The others I recognized but couldn't make out. A bright light came on. I saw my father, Aaron, his father, jack, his dad, and a few older men I didn't know. All had a different device. One had a knife. On had a whip. The others had different mechanical equipment. I got scared. I tried to move but I couldn't move. It wasn't working. I was tied down. I screamed. They started beating on me. everybody. They called me names. Names I knew were true. The pain went on for hours. Blood was everywhere. They all laughed.
"Emma!" Someone shouted, "Emma!"
I woke up in a fright and flinched away.
"Don't hurt me!" I shouted.
They took their hands away and I opened my eyes. Aaron was giving me a worried look. I closed my eyes and covered my face. He slowly walked to me and wrapped his arms around me.
"I will never hurt you," he whispered, "I promise you that."
He kept his arms wrapped around me and I wrapped mine around him. I cried into his shoulder. He rubbed my back. After awhile I pulled away and he took the tears away. He cupped my cheeks with his hands, he looked at my eyes.
"What was it?" He asked.
I explained the nightmare to him. He didn't have anything to say afterwards. I shook my head.
"I'm so sorry," I whimpered.
He shook his head, "I just don't understand. Why me? Why was I in that?"
I shook," I don't know."
He stood up and walked out of the room. I knew he was mad. I don't know how to apologize. It's not like I want him to be there. I love him. I finally am able to come to grips with that thought. I can't leave him.