Please Don't Go (Dream x Reader)

Chapter 52

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Mentions of Suicide

~3rd person~

The building reeked of chemicals. Clay scrunched his nose up as he made his way to the front desk, with Alec trailing at his heels.

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Alec hated hospitals, even if they were in the ICU. It's where he watched his mother die from COPD, chronic obstructive pulmonary disease. It's a progressive lung disease that makes breathing difficult.

Alec's mother shrugged it off, until it became too much. Ad by that time, it was too late.

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Alec cowered behind Clay as they got checked in and were told that they would be able to see Y/n.

Clay let out a shuddering breath as a nurse lead them to Y/n's room.

Before opening the door the nurse turned around, "We want Y/n to be as comfortable and relaxed as possible, unfortunately that means only one person in the room at a time."

Alec pushed Clay forward, as if speaking for him, "He'll go."

Clay felt his right shake, it was a subtle sign of anxiety and it was something he had grown accustom to.

Clay gulped down the ever growing lump in his throat and followed the nurse into the room.

The walls were plain old white. On the left was a door, which Clay assumed to be a small bathroom. And there was an alcove with few stray sitting chairs.

In front of him was a wide window overlooking the paved parking lot. Tingliness pooled in his stomach just thinking about the drop.

On the right was Y/n.

In a bed with white sheets and one pillow. Medical equipment surrounded her frail body. Tubes were stuck up her nose, because she couldn't breathe properly.

And a IV drip was attached to her inner elbow.

Y/n stared at Clay with big e/c eyes, though no emotion crossed her face.

The nurse gave a slight push to Clay's back, "She won't speak, but go talk to her. I'll be just down the hall if you need me."

Clay didn't respond but slowly made his way to her bedside, Y/n's eyes followed his every movement.

Clay crouched down to her level and gently grasped her hand. "Hey princess." He whispered, afraid he would scare her off, "Its me Clay, I missed you."

Tears pricked at the males eyes and it wasn't long before they started to stream.

Y/n continued to stare at him and his tear-stained freckled face.

Clay sighed because apart of him hoped that he would get that fairytale ending, that impossible miracle that would make Y/n talk to him.

He knew it would take time, and he would wait for an eternity.

Clay rubbed small circles with his thumb on Y/n's hand. "I'm sorry, this is all kind of my fault."

The blonde male looked up from their intertwined hands to her beautiful e/c ones. "Before I go, I just want to say that I love you. Because I really do, all those years ago, I finally found how I felt. Even if you don't feel the same, I'll always be here for you, okay?"

Y/n's lips twitched, and tears pooled in her eyes. Clay felt a small tug of her hand and stood up.

Y/n's tear filled eyes never left his.

Clay leaned down to place a small kiss on her forehead, when he heard a raspy voice, "Cuddle?"

The males eyes widened in disbelief, "Y-you-" he was too stunned to say anything else and let the tears pour.

A faint ghost of a smile sat upon her lips, and it made Clay smile.

But as a few seconds went by, his smile left, "I have to go, Alec wants to see you."

Y/n's eyes sunk, but she softly nodded.

Clay wiped his eyes on the sleeves of his hoodie and opened the door to invite Alec in. Both had swapped places.

Clay found a nearby waiting area and sat down. This time he made sure to face away from the window, so he didn't have a surprise panic attack.

A few minutes had passed, and a thought had crossed his cluttered brain.

This was the first time Y/n had seen his face. Clay wanted to disappear into the chair he was sitting on.

He knew he didn't look his best; he'd been struggling profusely. His insecurities got the best of him and wandered til he found a bathroom.

He stared himself down in the mirror. His hair was greasy, since he didn't have time to shower after the eight+ hour flight.

'Kill yourself' there they were again. They'd been awfully quite for a few months, but for some reason they had returned.

'Just kill yourself.'

Clay had just got Y/n back, there was no way he could off himself.

'She doesn't care, she won't even talk to you.'

Clay ran a shaky hand through his damp hair, why did he feel this way? Why did his destructive thoughts sound so convincing?

Tears threatened to spill.

'Oh now you're going to cry? Wow, how pathetic.'

Him, having recently overcome the suicidal thoughts, he couldn't let that temptation win again.

Clay sucked up the remaining tears and went back to her medical room.

"George?" Clay cleared his throat as he saw his best friend standing in front of her door.

George was lost in thought as his hand was positioned to knock. But once he heard Clay, he faces the other and brought his hand back down to his side.

Clay pulled the brunette into a warm and comforting hug. George hugged back, and that filled Clay with more comfort and love (/p) he ever thought he could receive.

Clay squeezed his eyes shut, to try and stop the tears from falling. George was doing the same.

George saw the pain that infected Clay. He had to watch him buckle and break from thousands of miles away. He felt relieved to hold his best friend in his arms.

Both pulled away and smiled goofily at each other with tear-stained cheeks.

"Wanna go in?" Clay sniffed. George's smile got wider if that was even possible. "Well, I didn't drive here for you."

Clay rolled his watery emerald eyes and politely knocked on the door before entering the white walled room.

Y/n was now sitting up and holding Alec's hand, who had pulled a chair next to her bed.

Clay felt a twinge of jealousy pulse through him  and it stung, but he helplessly shrugged it off.

Y/n let go of Alec's and waved excitedly at George. A smile grew on George's face.

"Y/N!" The door got thrown open. Nick stood out of breath in the doorway, beads of sweat were sticking to his forehead.

Clay had found his family.

AHHHH IM HERE I PROMISE

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-Athrii <3