Wink Of An Eye (MinWon)

Chapter 11

Ever since Wonwoo could remember, he could always say that he was someone that has a good memory. And to some, that of course is a blessing. Because when you are with good memories, life can go a little bit smoother for you.

If you have a good memory, you can always remember the lessons and assignments that your teacher would give you making you have high grades. If you have a good memory, you can become much more productive by remembering things that needed to be done. Thanks to having a good memory, you can also be sure that you are buying the right products when you are grocery shopping.

And thanks to having a good memory, you can always remember the precious moments you have with the people you love. But sometimes, a good memory can be a curse. Because right now, Wonwoo wished that he wasn't so good at remembering things. Because thanks to the good memory that he has, everywhere he looked inside his apartment, all of it reminds him of Jun. 

Wonwoo would sit on the sofa trying to get by for the day, and he'd remember the moments he'd share with Jun. He'd sit at the dining table, eating food he ordered because he was a terrible cook, and remember all the meals Jun would cook for the two of them. Wonwoo would take a bath, and he'd suddenly want the arms that used that wrap around him when he and Jun would bathe together. And every time he went to his bedroom to get clothes, he'd recall all the intimate moments that happened here.

The bedroom was the worst for Wonwoo. It was the room that had the most precious and happy memories that he had with Jun. So it was the hardest room to look at. He still can't get himself to sleep on the bed. Wonwoo couldn't even let himself stay longer than five minutes inside. He'd just take a few clothes after a shower, and would immediately leave the room.

It has now been one week ever since Jun broke up with him, and this has been how Wonwoo was spending his days.

Since the school year for their last year in high school had just ended when Jun left him, Wonwoo does not have anything to do. He doesn't have to study just yet since he still has so much time. And he still has a lot of savings that he didn't need to look for any summer jobs to pay for his daily needs.

So all Wonwoo has been doing was trying his best to not remember Jun. But it was quite difficult to do when Wonwoo was living inside of the apartment that he and Jun used to share. And Wonwoo's only actual attempt to forget him was to drown himself with shows from Netflix. It was the thing only that could at least distract his mind from thinking about Jun.

But just like now, as Wonwoo was distracting himself by watching some anime character fight off against some enemies, he would sometimes lean his head on the side, expecting Jun's shoulder to be there to support him. Only for his face to suddenly make contact with the couch's cushion. And Wonwoo would then miss Jun once again.

This happened more times than he can count. No matter what he did in this house, everything would just remind him of Jun.

Wonwoo sat upright and let out a sigh. Even though memories of Jun are constant in his mind, he has to admit that it doesn't hurt as much.

Days ago, the thought of Jun alone was enough for Wonwoo's heart to ache. Making Wonwoo feel like crying all over again. Because of that, Wonwoo would often take lots of naps on the couch. Whether if it was still early, or already late at night, Wonwoo would sleep to relieve himself of the pain that he was feeling.

But now, the thought of Jun no longer brought tears to Wonwoo's eyes. Even though it still hurts, it hurts less now.

Time heals all wounds, Wonwoo guesses.

Still, even if the pain is no longer as strong, doesn't mean that the feeling inside of Wonwoo has improved. Even right now as he's letting his eyes take in the show he's currently watching, Wonwoo wasn't sure what he should feel. He doesn't even know if he's feeling anything at all.