Forbidden | yung blud fanfic

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Pulling up to the hotel room in an Uber rain was pouring down the windows me and Dom hadn't spoke a word to one another, The silence was deafening between us as I sobered up getting out of the Uber I quickly remembered Adams words " you're just another notch on his bed post " paired with Dom's own words which only proved Adam right.

Dom slammed the car door shut as I stood in the pouring rain, he came close to me but I took another step back " Luna what are yo-" I cut him off " I'm just disposable to you aren't I, another fucking notch on your bed post " I was angry the rage was like a fire in stomach.

I regretted letting him so close to me in the club that I let my guard down so easy, " what are you talking about " Dom tried to stop closer to me, I stepped back " no don't come near me, I don't wanna be part of your games no more " tears started to stream down my face disguised by the down pour of the rain.

" Luna what fucking games " his hair was now soaked, strands fell in front of his eyes, " you, your fucking games with women and I was so weak so fucking weak I fell for your charm AGAIN" I got down on my knees in the lashings of rain unable to control my tears.

" you were never a game to me Luna " he tried to reach toward me  now on his knees too, I flinched " just don't touch me Dom " I looked towards him black streaks now covered my face where my makeup had run from rain and the pain in my chest.

" why " it was a whisper I almost missed, " because if you touch me I'll forgive you, I'll forget what you said back in the bar about fucking other girls that we are nothing, and I fucking hate myself for it " I wiped away some of my tears, snapping back to Reality that we were outside the hotel probably looking insane by passers by.

I stumbled to my feet now sober and only drunk on emotions and anger " i hate myself for being so weak under your touch, I won't let myself be broken by you " it took me everything to walk away from Dom, who was still on his knees in the pouring rain.

I'm a compassionate person going against Every instinct I had in my body to turn around and comfort him, I was stupid to sleep with him stupid drunk little me let herself almost fucking forget how easily he tossed what we had shared in the weeks before a side.

I walked up to my hotel room not even looking back locking it firmly behind me so Dom couldn't follow, I noticed how cold not only I was from the rain but how cold my heart was in this moment.

I played into exactly what he wanted, sex in the club toilets thinking that's what would fix what he said.
it didn't it was like a drug, a temporary high for me and once it had worn off I was faced with the crushing withdrawals of my actions.

I peel the wet clothing from my body and pace into the bathroom turning the shower onto the hottest temperature, needing to feel anything but the coldness within, I step inside letting the water wash over me in that moment I let go.

I fell to the ground to the shower floor hugging my knees to my chest let him my tears cascade from my eyes, I cutch at me knees to my chest whimpering coming to the terms I've been used.

Adam was right is all I could mutter, I kept getting flash backs to the time I walked in on Dom and another girl in his dressing room and it felt like a knife to the back, why did I care why did I fucking care.

I dropped my head letting it rest on me knees for a second getting a flash back to the beach, to the time Dom took care of me in the hotel room when I threw up on myself, when I took care of him in the tour bus, and to the stupid fucking song he wrote and showed me after we met.

All that to be tossed away to easily in a single conversation, maybe I'm over reacting but I've been used and pushed around my whole life and I thought, I thought it was different with Dom that's why it hurt so much.