Vivianas POVSchool started a few days ago and I'm ready to kill myself
Kidding
Kinda
Anyway-
I haven't seen Emma in a week, I know it's only a week but she is my only friend
The only person outside of my parents I regularly talk to, the only one who actually has some insight on what I have been feeling
She has just been too busy with starting school to come over, which I understand. Emma has a life outside of me and I never wanted to stop her from living it
Moms are both home today which is cool,
Mama has also been getting on me about telling mom about Emma and I-
I don't even see why it matters, it's been 3
Weeks already since mama made us sit through that very embarrassing talk so too late nowShe even bought these weird things were supposed to use, emma and I looked at them and just left them in my bathroom,
I really needed to take a shower since I didn't yesterday but also I needed to shave-
Since being back moms bought me this stupid cream stuff and let me tell you- it's terrible
So I figured while they are both home now is my chance to hopefully get my razor back
I never used that to cut anyway
I walked out to the living room, mom was in the kitchen making some smoothie and mama was reading through some files
"I got a question" I say and they both look to me
"Can I have my razor back now?" I ask, I know, what a conversation
"Bambina" mama sighs
"I'm not going to try and hurt myself, I swear I just really need to shave" I say
"I don't know viv" mom says
"Seriously? I never even used that to cut with anyway. Why would I start now?" I ask them
"What's wrong with the stuff I had given you?" Mom ask
"It literally doesn't work" I say
"Come on- I'll even give it back afterwards. This is ridiculous I'm 16! I shouldn't have to ask to shave my legs" I complain and they don't respond
"Look- I know you don't trust me, and yea that sucks. But if you're just going to not trust me the rest of my life then we'll never get past anything" I tell them
"Fine, I'll go to the store later but I want it back when you're done" mom says and both mama and I look at her shocked
I didn't think she would be the one to give in
"Thank you!" I exclaim and wrap my around around my mom giving her a hug and she chuckles
I went back to my room and mama came in a few moments later and just sat on the bed
"We do trust you bambina... but, we are still worried" mama says and I nod
"I'm sorry you felt like we didn't trust you" she says and I chuckle
"Mama you locked the kitchen knifes up like I'm a toddler" I say
"I know I messed up, I took it too far. But I don't want to do that again," I admit and she puts an arm over my shoulder
"I know. We know." She says and I sigh
"Another thing.... You need to tell mom about Emma" she says
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Just Breathe (Marina)
FanfictionMaya and carinas daughter Viviana, suffers from both depression and anxiety, her parents just don't know to what extent until eventually It all becomes too much and Viviana reaches out to her moms This story will be mostly told from Vivianas perspe...