Vivianas POVI messed up,
I know I did. I didn't mean what I said. I was just mad and upset
I don't like being ignored by her, I don't like being ignored period. It's always been like that and she knows it
But I know she is not like her dad. My mom is great. And I meant nothing that I said earlier at the house,
I didn't mean to make mom upset, or mama. I just wanted them to listen to me for once. But I did it the wrong way
Now I'm sitting alone in moms office, I need to apologize but I'm not even going to think about disobeying mama right now so it will just have to wait
I wasn't alone for long when Vic and Travis walked in which made me worry, why are they here?
"Is my mom okay?" I ask them
"She's okay" Vic says but the look on Travis' face made me not so sure
"Then why are you in here?" I ask, I wasn't trying to be rude. Honest.
"Your mama asked us to come sit down here with you" Vic says and I nod
"She's mad at me, so is mom. I messed up" I say and rest my head on my moms desk
"I'm sure they aren't mad" Travis says and I don't move from my spot
"I said something I shouldn't have, I upset mom and it made mama really mad" I admit and begin to scratch at my arm
It's just a soothing thing I was able to find for myself, well it may not be entirely healthy but it's the best I got
I hate confrontation. I always have. I don't even know what was going on inside of me this morning when I snapped at mom, I just felt betrayed I guess
And tired. I was tired of being ignored but now that I look back on it I could have said something differently
Vic and Travis decided not to say anything else which I was grateful for.
I don't know how long we all sat in silence for but the next thing I knew moms office door was opening again
I thought it was mama coming to yell at me again so I just kept my head down, I know I deserved it but still
I heard Vic and Travis get up and the office door shut and lock, that scared me a little so I lifted my head up and seen mom standing at the door and I put my head back down
I wanted to apologize but I didn't even know where to begin,
I wanted to just throw myself into her arms but I also knew I didn't deserve that
So Instead, I just stayed in my position
"Vivi" mom says softly after a minute and I look over to her, a proper look at her
Her eyes were red and her face was puffy, i could tell she has been crying, I did that to her
After seeing that I broke, I know I can't do anything to make it better but I could try
"I'm so sorry mommy, I didn't mean it. I know you're not like him. I was mad and it just came out. I wasn't even thinking. I didn't mean to hurt you' im so so sorry" I say but make no effort to move from my spot
Mom just nodded and continued to look at me
"Come here" she says and I waste no time in getting up and letting myself be wrapped in a hug by her
"I'm sorry. I know it doesn't make it better but I am..... I didn't mean any of it. You're an amazing mom and I'm lucky to have you" I say with my head still laying on her chest, I didn't want to see her face right now,
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Just Breathe (Marina)
FanfictionMaya and carinas daughter Viviana, suffers from both depression and anxiety, her parents just don't know to what extent until eventually It all becomes too much and Viviana reaches out to her moms This story will be mostly told from Vivianas perspe...