Glimpse Of Us ✓

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3rd person POV:

Jungkook looked at him with tears dripping down his cheeks.."i tried to be jungwoon because the only thing I wanted was genuinely love me. Which you didn't.

You didn't reject me when i acted like my own self.. like jungkook. You accepted me.. but then i saw you saying his name in sleep or crying while looking at his pictures even after you said i love you to him.

I thought you still loved me.. but loved him more. I was delusional.. was trying to make myself believe what wasn't actually true and deep down i knew that yet i ruined myself.

I thought if you love him more, then i will try to be like him.. you will love me too like you love him. I will be what you want.. if i can't get enough love by being myself.

If only you had corrected all that, talked to me about what turmoil was going inside you.. nothing would have happened, would it? I wouldn't have to divorce you either.. wouldn't have to cry at nights.. wouldn't have to torture myself.

But you didn't instead you thought i was happy. You were falling for me.. good.. i had fallen for you years ago and i am still fallen.. but nobody had picked me up yet.

I expected you to do so but you didn't.. you instead pushed me down even more.. unknowingly for sure but you still did. I had my faults.. you had your faults. I guess it wasn't meant to work for us.

You were falling for me this past week, pick yourself up before it's too late. You still have time. I wish you the best.. you will find someone you could love wholeheartedly without thinking you are cheating on someone or feeling guilty about anything. You will find someone in whose eyes you won't see glimpses of you and him.

Free yourself from this too, and let me move on from this love too. Please sign these papers and leave from my life. I don't want any surgery. You were right.. i was really happy this last week.. being myself. Let me be myself for the time i am alive. " Jungkook repeated about the divorce.

"Jungkook you are pissing me off now.. i heard every single thing you said. I will leave you all alone I swear. I will sign these papers too i promise.. but not before you agree to the surgery.

Don't live only few months but your whole life as Jeon jungkook and find someone for yourself who will love you the way you deserve without anything holding him back. You can't go like this.

You are barely 30, you have a whole life ahead. Don't let it go to waste like this.

Jungwoon was like a parent to you more than your elder twin wasn't he? You loved and respected him a lot right? Would he want you to leave so soon and destroy your life like this? Would he want you to go through so much pain like he did? You saw yourself how much he was suffering that time didn't you? Would he want you to experience that too?

He told you to have a long happy life after he's gone, didn't he? Is this how you are going to fulfill his wish?" Taehyung tried to convince jungkook.

Jungkook gulped as he heard that.. he wiped his cheeks while sniffling.

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"The surgery was successful mr.taehyung.. congratulations."

Taehyung sighed in relief as he sat outside the OT with his hands joint and forehead rested on them.  He stood up immediately when he heard the doctor.

"Thank you so much Dr.park." taehyung said as he bowed to the man who nodded his head and patted his back a little with a smile.

"Mr.jungkook needs to be under medical observations for 10 days, after that he can be discharged but it will take around 4 to 6 weeks in the healing of surgery. For now.. it will take him a few hours before he wakes up." Doctor informed taehyung who nodded his head as in he's listening attentively.

After that the doctor left as taehyung slumped back down on the chair as he closed his eyes with his head in hands as he sniffled lightly.. the lump in his throat had never felt so prominent like it did right now as tears were threatening to spill from his eyes.

He was happy, extremely happy that the surgery was successful.. it took him a lot to convince his husband for the surgery and thankfully he finally agreed.

He didn't know what he would have done if something happened to jungkook now.. he might have just ended himself too if that that happened. And would have never been able to forgive himself.

But right now.. the realisation dawned upon him as he sat in the hospital room once again staring at the unconscious body of the younger after he was shifted from operation theatre to the normal ward.

He realised that he had to sign on those papers now.. he had promised that he will do and let jungkook go the minute he wakes up after the surgery.

It's been a few days since jungkook agreed for the surgery, since the doctors had to take regular check ups of jungkook and run the procedures before surgery.

All this while they were, taehyung was there in the hospital beside jungkook even though none of them said a single word to each other as taehyung wordlessly kept helping jungkook. Even for that.. the nurse was there to assist jungkook most of the times since he had been feeling too weak to get up on his own because of his throbbing headache and dizziness.. he had been throwing up constantly as well.

Now that the surgery was done.. he will have to leave from jungkook's life.. he doesn't even know whether the man will let him be there for him till the recovery or not.

It has been hurting his heart thinking about leaving jungkook. He has gotten so used to being with him, having someone waiting for him in the evening, someone seeing him off in the morning, someone caring for him the way jungkook does.. he couldn't have even imagine divorcing jungkook.

Sure he loved jungwoon before.. but lately it was only jungkook for him. He can't help but cry miserably at the thought. This past 2 weeks had been making him realise things he had never before. Made him feel things he never did before with jungkook after the boy had stopped talking or reacting to anything at all as he just kept sitting and zoning out the whole time.

But he is glad that atleast the man agreed and went through the surgery. He can't be selfish once again and break his promise just because he doesn't want to lose jungkook.

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