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As im just chilling in my room my mom burst in asking what I want for dinner. I tell her i was gonna go out in a couple of hours so it didnt matter. She looks at me side ways and says " you've been out a lot lately" I reply with "just trying to have some fun before school starts back" with a smile. She  slowly leaves my room and closes the door. Break ends in 3 more days so im trying to make it last as long as I can. I call Dame so he can watch me get ready to go out with Nijah. Nijah and Skyler have started back talking because we heard she was diagnosed with severe depression. We wanted to hangout with her one last time before she registers into a mental asylum. If I wouldve known she had depression I wouldnt have cut her off over something so petty. I put on a white tee shirt with some grey leggings and my black uggs since it decided to snow today. I throw on my Canada Goose and hang up on Dame because Nijah was otw to pick me up. I kiss my parents goodbye and hop into Nijahs car. She asks if I wanna smoke and I say yeah as she passes me the blunt. We arrive at Skylers house and walk to her room. We hugged her and sat on the bed. Then to make my day bad Diamond walks in. I give her a quick smile and she smiles hard back. Me Skyler and Nijah have a good time talking about old memories until out of nowhere Diamond says "so Layonna what happened with you and Jaylen again" I look at her cringing and say "its Layy. We just stopped talking nothing special." In my head I started getting mad. THIS NIGGA TOLD THAT HOE MY GOVERNMENT. I exit out the room to get a bottle of water so I could calm down. I call Dame and tell him to pick me up from down the street. I go into the room give everybody but Diamond a hug and start walking down the street. After 7 minutes of waiting for Dame I hop in his car and we go back to my house.

We got there and my parents were gone. They went to take Marcell and Marlie visit my sister at her university so I know they wouldnt be back anytime soon. I invite Dame inside and walk him to my room. He takes his shoes off before we arrive in my room. We lay down and I turn on a movie. 30 minutes into the movie we started kissing. He moved me on top of him as our tongues faught each other. He lifts my shirt up but instantly get off of him. "I told u im not fucking" I say to him before fixing my shirt. He gets up and smacks his lips and pulls me back to lay down. We just sat there in silence watching the movie. I start to feel a little bad about making things so awkward. I look up at Dame and get back on top of him but this time it wasnt for kissing. I got down a little lower to unbutton his jeans with the help of him. I start doing what my momma taught me and got to work. After 10 minutes he nutted. I spit it out and kept going until he lifts my head up and look at me. Soon as I finished my dad called to see if I made it home. I tell him yeah as he proceeded to tell me they'd be out a little while longer because they were taking my sister out for dinner. I go brush my teeth and clean up my spit as Dame buttons his pants back up.  I get back into the room and Dame asks me if that was my first time I looked at him and said yeah before laughing. We lay down for a few more minutes until my parents call and tell me their down the street. I help Dame out the door before spraying down the house because the aroma of weed he tracked in never left. I go back to my room and get ready for bed before smoking another blunt.

That morning I woke up was the first day of my new job. I woke up took a shower and put on a black long sleeve with black leggings and my fendi rainboots. I get a plate of breakfast while talking to my parents before I head out. After breakfast I grab my moms keys since she just got a new car and kiss my parents goodbye. As im driving to the preschool I get a text from a random number saying "wassup" I asked who this was and the number had instantly facetimed me. I answer and low and behold its Jaylen. He answers and say "Layy den got a nigga on me" while laughing. "Yeah you wasnt applying enough pressure like my new nigga is" I say trying to brag. We got back and forth until I pull up to my job. He's still on the phone working my nerves but before I hang up I ask what happened to Diamond. He replies and say "Didnt I tell you that was my friend dumbass lil girl".This nigga has truly lost his mind. I yell at him for about 5 minutes before getting out my car to yell at him some more. All he does is laugh and say "ima call u later". Before I hung up I said "dont". Im not even gonna lie I missed hearing his voice especially early in the morning when he still sound tired. I walk into the preschool and there was so many kids and mommas yelling at they baby daddies early in the morning.