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I look at him confused and asked how he knew i was here. He looks at me and shakes his head and says "I thought yo new nigga was applying pressure". I
playfully shoved him in the shoulder as he pulled off. I don't know how im gonna explain this to my parents because I knowww their gonna be livid and they come back home tomorrow. Jaylen drives into the chick fil la drive thru and analyzed the bruises on my arms. "Damn yall really was tussling" he says holding my arms looking at them he looks up at me and shakes his head. We get the food and drive to my house and sit in the drive away to eat. I didn't even have an appetite the only thing I could do was drink the water he ordered. All of this was definitely my fault and I feel sorry for Dame. I told him id never cheat on him and I haven't. He definitely overreacted because the texts between me and Jaylen were friendly and you wouldn't even guess we've messed with each other before. Hell he was probably cheating himself and wanted to be the victim. I unlock my phone and block him on everything. I look up at Jaylen and hug him and thank him for  paying the bail and get out the car.

I unlock my front door and do my hygiene before sitting down. As i'm in the shower I start to break down crying. I really love Dame but I know for a fact we're never gonna speak again. I get out of the shower abt an hour later to go get my car from Nijahs house. She got the car from Dames house while I was in jail and he's petty enough to get it towed. My uber arrives 20 minutes later and gets me to Nijahs house. I walk in and speak to her mom before heading to her room. "Bitch you're crazy" she says hugging me as I walk in the room. "Dame say anything to you while you were getting the car" I asked her curiously. She shakes her head no hugs me again. We had a deep talk before my dad called. He told me he and my mom were worried about me and they'd have a talk with me when they fly back tomorrow evening. I get my keys from Nijah and walk out to my car. I peep a big box of all my things I've ever left at Dames house. I instantly break down crying outside my car until Nijah walks out and hugs me as I sit beside my car and cry hysterically. She takes the box and puts it in her house as she helps me wipe my tears and get back into my car. I wipe my tears and finally drive off trying not to tear up again. I finally made it home and went straight to sleep. Around 3 hours later I finally wake up and make myself dinner. I turn on a movie and eat the oven pizza that was slightly burnt and pour a glass of water. I get done eating and clean the house before I decided to get some weed. I facetime Jaylen and tell him to pull up with something strong. He gets here 10 minutes later and walks into my house. he greets me with a hug around my waist. We walk into my room and instantly spark up. 6 blunts in and the crud is getting me more and more sensitive. Me and Jaylen are pouring our hearts out to each other saying how we've missed each other. I've decided I had enough weed and turn on "Crazy Rich Asians" as I lay on Jaylens chest. An hour into the movie we're in the spooning position and he pulls me closer to him as I let him. He begins to kiss my neck and slowly kisses lower and lower. He pulls my shorts off as I help him and starts to eat my pussy. I hold his dreads up with my hand as I let out soft moans. He comes up slowly and plants kisses all the way up to my boobs and start sucking them. I honestly let it all happen because I felt like I had nothing to lose. I gave up on waiting for marriage because I felt like I'd never find somebody who actually loved me. I finally came to my senses and gently pushed Jaylen off of me. I sit up and pull my shirt back down and look at him. "you know i'm waiting for marriage" I say to him as I stare at him. "Ima marry you" he says looking deep into my eyes. I dont believe it niggas will do anything for some pussy but cant no nigga said he had mine. I ignored the bs Jaylen just said and laughed a little. I just got out of a relationship and I dont want another. These niggas is really not for me idk.