If You Wanna Be Loved

8. The Club

I spent the next week exercising, like really exercising. I wanted to lose about 10-15 more pounds to get to my goal weight, and the last few pounds are always the hardest. I drank about a gallon of water a day, drank protein shakes and ate lots of celery and peanut butter.

I tried to stay off my phone as much as possible, but I did check it in case of any emergency. Sam and Colby both thanked me for the videos I sent and said they were great and that they'd put their finishing touches on them.

That's all I had heard from either of them all week. I tried not to worry about it. Colby would normally snap me at least once a day, but I guess I was the one to snap him first sometimes so maybe he was waiting for me. I was scared to snap him, I didn't want to do it first. And if he didn't care to snap me first then I shouldn't even worry about it.

At the end of the week I hopped on the scale, and there it was: 140. I started to cry. I finally did it. I was beyond happy. My hair was a mess, I was in my Calvin Klein workout bra and gym shorts, but I wanted a picture of this moment.

I stood in the mirror and took a selfie in the mirror with my arm up to show my muscle. I never post any pictures in skimpy clothes, but I was going to post this on Instagram. I made a collage of the last picture of me being 215 pounds, and the picture I just took. Wow what a difference. I was so much happier and healthier. I started to write my post.

"One year and six months later, I finally did it. The picture on the left was the last picture taken of me being 215 pounds. I saw that picture and was not happy with how I was living my life, along with other life events, and I decided it was time to change for ME.

The picture on the right was just minutes after I stepped on the scale and read 140 pounds. This was my goal weight, and I didn't think I could do it.
Feeling proud of yourself is something you should feel at least once in your life, and it can be for anything. Getting a degree, working hard for a raise, finishing a marathon, anything. But this right here, was my proudest moment. My hard work with blood, sweat and tears paid off. If you want to achieve a goal you need to WORK for it. Don't say you will do it, go do it NOW. You won't regret it."

I re read what I wrote and then I posted it, and I went back to the gym. After an hour workout I went back to my room and grabbed more water and some strawberries for a snack. They were the first sweet thing I had eaten in a week and they tasted amazing. I opened my phone and went to Instagram, seeing all the notifications for my last post. I had a lot of blue checkmark replies.

Katrina: Proud of you Kara! Let's go celebrate soon!

Samgolbach: This is awesome!

Kevinlange: Get it girl! Proud of you!!

EltonCaste: Great work! Feeling proud of yourself is the key to happiness. Glad you made it!

Corey: Yay good job 👍🏻 can we celebrate with cookies??

Brennantaylor: bitch KILL IT!! Always be proud of who you are!

Colbybrock: 🔥🔥

My heart skipped as I saw Colby's name. I'm glad he said something. Not that I wanted the attention from him, I was just worried he had stopped talking to me for some reason. I liked all of their posts and then read some fan comments.

Yes Kara you look great!

You're so pretty oh my god goals

This is inspiring me to better myself, thanks for the encouragement!

Literally my role model 😩

So glad Kara came into the squad, she's the sweetest, prettiest, definition of a hard working person out in the industry right now