If You Wanna Be Loved

12. Movie Night

A week went by and I hadn't hung out with Colby. It was hard to not say I missed him, because I did. But we were snapping each other more than we use to. It was about random stuff, nothing to do with stuff between us, which I didn't mind. I just liked his attention.

Maybe everything would be okay and we would just be friends with benefits. He really has opened up to me more than he had been before we slept together, and I think our chemistry helped that.

But I know he feels something more for me and is still not wanting to admit it, and probably knows we are sort of on the same page since I haven't brought it up either. I guess I won't know until/if something more ever happens.

It's still confusing because we haven't talked about it. The day he was being flirty was the first time he'd really talked about anything intimate between us. I wanted to just bring it up then, but I knew it would have ruined the moment and maybe ruined everything.
He was all I had been thinking about. Man I was in too deep with a boy that didn't even want a relationship.

It was a Friday and I was relaxing on the couch when I got a message from Sam. "Movie night at my place at 7! You down??" I smiled. It made me so happy that they were inviting me to things. I couldn't get over how lucky I was to have found such amazing friends and work partners. I replied "hell yeah!"
I hoped Colby would be there.

I watched YouTube videos and relaxed all day, and when I refreshed my home page I saw Corey posted his vlog, and the thumbnail was our night at the fire. I watched it, and I smiled the whole time.

The beginning was him and Devyn chilling together, then the next part was them driving to get lunch with everyone, the next part was at the bowling alley. I laughed at the part when me and Devyn had a stare off.

He had funny clips of everyone bowling, some of him and Sam joking around. I could see me and Colby talking in the background of a clip, we were smiling and laughing with each other. He seemed so happy. I know he was happy before, but he seemed very closed off and distant sometimes, and now he just seemed a lot more social lately.

I wondered if his friends had noticed. I don't know why Sam was so oblivious when Kat mentioned it. Maybe he does know and Colby told him not to say anything.

The next clip was at the fire. We were playing with the frisbee and the football. Then it cut to all of us sitting around the fire with the sun down. Sam and Kat were cuddling with each other, Devyn had her head on Corey's shoulder, I was sitting there just hugging my knees against my chest, and Colby was leaning back on his  hands with his knees up. Corey was just saying we had a fun day and how we had all our friends together. It was really nice.

The video ended and I exited out. It was about time to have dinner, so I made myself a sandwich and a salad and continued to watch videos. All the sudden I got a notification that TFIL posted the night at the presidential suite.

My stomach turned nervously. I didn't know if I wanted to watch it. I clicked on it and watched the beginning. It was the intro, us checking in, us looking around the suite, then it cut to the night.

When the scary stuff started happening I pulled a pillow into my chest. It got to the part when I started getting dizzy, when Colby ran up to me. Intense music played in the background as they showed my scratches.

We ran out of the room and back to the other one where I started crying and Colby wrapped me in his arms, that's when Elton told Corey to cut the camera. For some reason I was feeling emotional watching the video, seeing how Colby reacted. He seemed really worried about me.

It turned back on when we started talking about what happened. me and Colby were on the couch and he still had his hands on my arms, asking if I was still dizzy.