If You Wanna Be Loved

13. Trip Back Home

The next two weeks were a blur. Colby and I were seeing each other almost every day. He mostly came over to my place, probably so Sam or Jake wouldn't see me with him.

Some nights we'd have sex, other nights we would just chill. Either way he'd spend the night, It was really nice. I got use to him being at my place, and he got comfortable being there. We were both to the point where we could do stuff like burp in front of each other, and I could feel my inner self coming out.

I show my true self always, but there's another side to me that not everyone gets to see. The lovey, giggly, open self. I was so happy around him. I saw that side of him every once in a while, and I loved it.

He would get super giggly and sometimes he'd get shy and lay his head in my lap if I teased him. He had a tickle fight one night and we both found each other's spots, mine weren't hard because I'm ticklish everywhere.

I felt like that night that he walked me down and told me how he was feeling, the way I reacted to it helped him become more open. I think he realized I was giving him the go ahead to be close to me with no strings attached, even though neither of us were talking to other people. I wouldn't anyway, like I said, I didn't expect to be in a relationship for a long time.

You know what they say about LA, everyone's just trying use each other and it's hard to find someone to date. This just kind of happened. Colby is a player, but I also know he hasn't seen anyone since we first kissed.

It's been so long since that day. It all started with a truth or drink video. It's crazy to think how we got to where we were now. Friends with benefits, but in my mind it seemed to be more than just benefits. We weren't acting like a couple, two people who really liked each other.

I loved this stage because there were constant butterflies. I had a feeling if he let me in completely, we could have that feeling forever. I knew I shouldn't be thinking like that, but I couldn't help it. I was in love with him. It was getting harder to not show it.

It was the beginning of October and I planned a last minute surprise trip to Minnesota for my little sisters birthday. I was so excited to go back, especially since it was fall and I got to see all the colorful leaves. I told Colby one night when we were laying in my bed watching tv.

"They'll really like that" he said with a small smile, "how long will you be gone?"

"I figured I'd fly in the night before her birthday and get there in the morning on Friday, then I'll probably stay for the weekend and leave maybe Tuesday or Wednesday."

He was silent for a second. "Want me to drop you off at the airport?"

"If you want to, that would be great" I said. He smiled. "Yeah it's not a problem, then you don't have to pay for your car to sit there. I can pick you up when you get back too."

"Thank you Colby" I said. We just smiled at each other for a bit, a comfortable silence. Man I wish I could take him with me. He would stay at my moms house, help us decorate, play with my sister, and we'd take cute fall pictures together. If only...

That next week I was all packed and ready to go. I had to be at the airport by 9:30, I was taking a late flight. Colby was picking me up at 8:45, which was in about 10 minutes. He had already texted that he was on his way so I double checked that I had everything and that all the lights were turned off, and I went downstairs.

Colby pulled up in is red Corolla and he got out to help me put my bag in the backseat. "You remember everything?" He asked as he opened the passenger door for me. "I think so" I said.

The drive there was pretty quiet. He had music playing softly and I watched the buildings pass out the window. Finally I looked at him. "When are we filming another Sam and Colby video?" I asked, realizing their last video from our Minnesota trio would be posted next week.