When reality changes

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Kells went to Emmas and said he would e to Lillian's after but when I got to lillians she was paceing and I heard Isa crying I hugged Lillian and she just stood there crying "it's ok, I know it hurts but it will be ok" I said and she nodded "my family didn't make it any better cause they didn't even care that me and isa are hurting" she said "he was that person that everyone hated but the people who didn't hate him loved him more than anyone" I said and she smiled "see do that, don't cry, he would want you to be happy" I said  then Isa ran out "daddy?" She asked "no baby like I told you daddy passed away" Lillian said "Isa, you know how I used to have a puppie named laden?" I asked and she nodded "your daddy is visiting laden" I said "so he's comwkng back?" She asked "no, he's staying with laden forever" I said "why I love daddy" she said huggeing me and crying "you know what" I said takeing the polaroid picture out of my phone case, it's a picture of me, fin, kells, and Isa when she was a baby baby "here" I said handing it to her "that's me?" She asked pointing at her "yah" I said and she smiled looking at fin holding her "remember that night you acted like a frat boy with beer" Lillian said "cause I knew it was fins dream to be a dad, he always used to tell me 'one day when I have a baby your not going to be any less important to me sis' and I always thought he was lieing, he has broke many promises in his life time but never to me" I said and Isa was still stareing at it, fin is holding her in the middle and kells is on the right looking at Isa with his arm around fins sholder and I'm on the left looking at Isa with my head resting on fins sholder "mama that's me" Isa said pointing at herself "that's daddy" she said pointing at fin "and that's uncle cols" she said pointing at kells "who's that?" I asked point at me "it's you silly" she said "really I didn't know" I said and she laughed Lillian was smileing at isa, "if you need anything I'm here" I said "I know you got here in like 7 hours" she said "if I need to help this munchkin I will" I said tickleing Isa and she kept laughing "love you" I said to
Isa and she kissed me cheek. "You act so much like your brother" she said "nah" I said "with her you do" she said "him and kells are the only male figures I had growing up so that's probably why" I said, then kells knocked "uncle cols!" Isa yelled huggeing him "hey" he said huggeing back "look" she said showing him the picture "auntie gave that to you?" He asked and she nodded "thought that and the other one where your prized possession" kells said "it is but if she needs it I'm ok, it's not like I can finish it anyways" I said, I put a Polaroid picture of me, kells, fin and casie when she was a born in my phone case too and I was planning on getting one when I have a kid "it's alright, I have the same picture we can do a picture with rook or Dre or someone" kells said "what dose he mean?" Lillian asked me and I took out my other picture of kells smileing and crying happy tears and holding casie? He is a water work guy and fin is a shake person when he's really excited, fin was rubbing casies head and I was just smileing at her "aw" Lillian said looking at the picture "then that picture was the second puzzle piece, and to finish it, we would take a picture when I have a kid" I said "I can picture it in my head, you holding a little baby, fin and kells on your sides probably laughing at you and you all have big smiles" Lillian said "but it's ok cause I can't finish it anyways" I said "I think fin had that picture I'll be back" she said and she came back with a shoe box with a ton of pictures, we all sat in a circle and we showed Isa the pictures, then I found one from when I was born "that's old" kells said "yah" I said smileing at 5 year old fin holding me, I still had blood on me and stuff "you guys can take any pictures you want" Lillian said "can I have this one" I asked holding up the one of fin holding me "of course" she said and I put it aside then kells started laughing "what?" I asked and he showed me the picture of me shoveing cake in his face and fin had casies little hand moveing it "your first birthday as a dad" I said "yah, cas was almost 1" kells said setting the picture back down "how many pictures did this guy take?" I asked finding one from when I met rook, he was nice for a couple while till ironicly when my boyfriend came around "look how werjd sticks look in this" I said showing Isa and she laughed "your dateing him" kells said "I know" I said "fin really loved you all" Lillian said "I know, he really loved you too, I remember when he was crushing on you" I said "this is a bad time to ask but how'd it happen?" Kells asked "I have no information yet or I'd tell you, but all I know is he was found with many gun wounds, and other forms of trumma" Lillian sighed "I'm sorry" kells said "it's ok, you loved him you just wanted to know" she said "he was my brother, my fucking best friend" he said "I know" Lillian said then I found a picture from casies first birthday colson, got us back by shoveing cake in mine and fins face and pitting iceing on casies face, gentley "I think you'll like this picture" kells said and it was a picture of me and rook danceing at fin and Lillians wedding "I had a stalker" I said "aw" Lillian said looking at it "and you hated him" kells said and I took the picture then we found all the pictures of him, Lillian and Isa at the wedding "I love him" she said holding a picture then I found the same picture I gave to Isa "Isa do you want daddy's picture or mine?" I asked showing her fins old picture "daddy's" she said takeing fina picture and giveing me mine "maybe Isa or lillian can be in the next picture" kells said "I don't think I want there to be a new picture if fin can't be in it" I said "understandable" kells said "I think this picture will be good enough for the last picture" I said holding the picture of me and rook, I put them in my phone case but it doesn't look right so I took the one of me and rook out. "When I go threw his things everyone is aloud to take things he was incredibly close to you all" Lillian said "yah I felt bad only bring kells but I knew he would want to hug casie again" I said "they where all soned and didn't fully understand anything" kells said "still" I sighed "rook thought you where brakeing up with him again" kells said "has he seen the way she looks at him, she is in love" Lillian said.

We stayed for a couple days and they found the guy who killed fin, Lillian and my mom are planning the funaral Isa is definitely gunna miss him but if she's distracted or has that photo she's alright.