When reality changes

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I changed for the show and I seen kells taking to a woman "this is cam, she's like my sister" kells said to the lady and I waved "nice to meet you, I'm colsons mom" she said "nice to meet you I have you have a good time at the show" I said "so colson said your like a sister" she said and I nodded "their all my family" kells said and rook walked over "this is rook, my drummer, he's also dateing cam" kells said and rook looked exto confused "hi I'm colsons mom" she said "hi" rook said and he looked at me still confused "be nice" I mouthed and he nodded. "Cam can you help me interduse her to everyone?" Kells asked "sure" I said and rook walked into my dressing room for something, I just followed kells "dude what are you doing this isn't the time" slim said "it's my mom" kells said "oh I'm sorry, I'm slim" slim said to her then Lillian called me "kells ill be right back" I said and he nodded after I showed him my phone "what's up?" I asked "do you guys have days off in Cleveland?" She asked "I think so, we normally do, hold on" I said and I found ash and she checked "yah we do" I said "when?" She asked "the 3rd and 4th" I said "thank you, you guys have been so much help" she said "your welcome" I said

When I got off the phone I found kells "my mom went to her seat" kells said and I nodded "what did she call about?" He asked "when our off days are" I said and he hugged me "you gotta cry girl, you've been holding it in" he said "no I haven't" I said "yah, you cryed once" he said "whatever, I gotta go on stage soon" I said

After I got off stage I got a werid feeling I don't know why "you ok?" Pops asked and I nodded "I'm gunna go change" I said "what's wrong?" Megan asked following me "nothing something feels off" I said "fin?" She asked "no something else I just cant place it" I said "stop worrying" she said then I heard kells saying something to the crowd but I couldn't understand it "how do you feel?" Megan asked "scared" I said lighting a joint "what do you mean?" She asked "like something big is gunna happen that I'm not sure if I'm ready" I said and my hand was shakeing "do you feel sick?" She asked and I nodded "don't smoke that" she said and took something out of her bag "meg this is the only thing that calms me" I said "trust me I've felt this before" she said and she tossed me a pregnancy test "I'm not pregnant" I said "you don't know untill you take it" she said "I'm not pregnant meg" I said "have you had sex with rook?" She asked "I'm uncomfortable now" I said "seriously" she said "I'm not awncering your question" I said "fine but it's your choice cause if your not pregnant and you don't take it I still won't let you drink or smoke" she said "cam!" Ash yelled knocking on the door "what?" I asked "kells wants you on stage" she said and I ran to the stage "what?" I asked, "close your eyes" kells said so I did and when I opened them rook was infront of me "before you say anything let me finish" he said and I nodded "I know you arnt ready this is why I'm doing this, will you marry me someday?" He asked holding a ring that says 'promise' "someday" I said nodding and he gave me the ring then everyone cheered, I hugged him then went off stage, I went back to my dressing room and actually changed "you gunna take it?" Megan asked "no" I said "fine no drugs or alcohol" she said "thats mean" I said "than take it" she said "not happening" I said

I don't think I'm pregnant but after Megan brought it up everything seemed like I was, I finally took the test and like I said negative. "Give me my weed now" I said to Megan "let me see it" she said and I showed her not showing anyone elce and she gave my weed back "never talk about this again?" I asked and she nodded "what was that about?" Rook asked "nothing" I said "whatever" he said smileing at me.

When we got to the Cleveland show, Ashton, casie and Isa where running around I just watched them "you would be a grate mom" rook said sitting next to me "you sure I feel like I'd be a crappy mom" I said "nah, I see the way you are with cas and Ashton, and Isa, you would run yourself down for them" he said and I rested my head on his sholder "auntie!" Isa yelled and she showed me the picture "you haven't lost it?" I asked "no" she said and I showed her my picture "where the one of you and stick?" She asked "at my house" I said "what?" Rook asked "my brother took a picture of us danceing at his wedding" I said "look" she said point at her picture "me" she said to rook while point "daddy" she said pointing at fin "uncle cols" she said pointing at kells "and auntie" she said pointing at me, then she played again, "can I talk to you?" Lillian asked me and we walked away so no one heard us "I'm sorry, if I didn't get pregnant he would have been with you and kells travaleing and not in Cleveland" she said "don't apligize for makeing my brothers dream come true, he always wanted a daughter, and he would still have been in Cleveland for you, and our mom, he was vary much a family man" I said "I just feel like I could have changed things" she said "you couldn't have, and you guys had an amazing little girl, you will fall in love again, just don't forget about him" I said and she nodded, "mommy!" Isa yelled running to Lillian as we walked back