Will POV
We are only sitting inches apart and I can tell that he is nervous about something. He is fidgeting with his fingers and occasionally rubbing his slim fingers through his hair, not saying a word.
"So, is everything okay?" I ask quietly, breaking the long lasting silence.
"Yeah, everything is fine." he says, pausing for another minute or two. I can tell that he's lying.
"Well, not really. El and I broke up." he says a little while later. I can't help but feel a little bit of excitement despite how hard this must be for him. I feel bad because El and I are also friends, but joy still fills my heart.
"Mike, I'm so sorry. Are you okay?" I ask him, as genuinely as possible right now.
"Yeah, I guess. I mean I am the one who broke up with her." he says. I thought he was insanely in love with her.
"Oh. Was there a reason?" I ask hesitantly.
"I guess I just felt - different about her then I used to. I think I fell out of love with her...and more in love with someone else over the past few years." he says, my heart sinking. There is someone else.
"Oh. How long have you been in love with this other person?" I ask, tears stinging in my eyes and threatening to escape, but I push them back.
"Basically my whole life. They've always been there for me. They're super sweet and adorable and smart." he says. I can feel myself become sick to my stomach from his aching words and tone. I can tell just by the way he talks about this person that he's madly in love with her.
"Do I know her?" I ask, wincing slightly at the question and preparing for the answer.
"Well that's kinda the thing - its not a her." he says. I feel like a shock travel through my whole body and a shiver trickle down my spine.
"I wanted to tell you but I was scared. I've been thinking about it for a while and I think I like boys and girls." Mike says, my heart fluttering with excitement.
"Wow, Mike. I'm really happy for you. So uh - who's the guy then?" I ask slowly, crossing my fingers in my lap.
"I'm really nervous to say who." he says hesitantly.
"Okay, it's fine. Do I know him?" I ask, causing him to laugh a little.
"Yeah, you know him. You know him well. Will I have to tell you something." he says. All of the sudden I feel the space between us closing quickly and he takes my chin in his soft hand and places his lips on mine, shocking me at first before I ease into the kiss.
Our lips move hungrily and in sync as I put my hair in his raven black curls and pull him closer. I feel like I'm floating on a cloud in total euphoria. I have been imagining this moment for years and this is even better then I could have hoped. His hand finds my leg as he leans in even more, our bodies now touching.
When I finally lean away, Mikes cheeks are rosy and I'm guessing mine are as well. My hands shake and Mike notices, placing his hand on top of mine.
"I'm in love with you, Will. I have been for a really long time." Mike says, my heart doing backflips at his words.
"You have no idea how much I love you and long I have waited for this." I tell him, interlocking my fingers with his.
"How long?" he laughs.
"Since the day I saw you alone in kindergarten." I tell him. I can see his face turn red as he kisses me firmly again, my heart fluttering.
"God, you're so cute. It's been so hard hiding my feelings for you for so long." I say, admiring his gorgeous facial features.
"The past few times that we've hung out, all I could think was how much I wanted to tell you how I felt - and how much I wanted to kiss you." he says, slightly biting his lip.
I boldly place my lips on his quickly before kissing him once on the cheek and the neck before leaning away, his jaw dropped.
"Are you ready to tell anyone about us? If not I'm totally okay with that." I reassure him.
"Yeah, I'm not sure I'm ready to say anything yet. Let me at least tell my family first. I'm really sorry. You probably want to tell the party right?" Mike says.
"I'll tell everyone when you're ready, Mike. I honestly don't even care, I'm just so happy about all of this. Us getting together I mean." I say nervously.
"Thank you, Will." he says.
"Do you maybe wanna spend the night since tomorrow is Saturday? My mom is at work but she won't mind." I ask him.
"Definitely. Can I use your phone to call my parents?" he ask.
"Of course." I say. He leaves and returns a little while later with a huge grin across his face.
"My mom said yes! Do you have any extra pillows and blankets?" he asks. I nod and quickly scurry into the hallway and rummage through the closet to find an old pillow and a big grey blanket. I go back to find him still sitting on the bed.
"Do you wanna sleep...in the bed?" I ask. Oh gosh.
"Yeah, definitely." he says confidently.
I move my pillow over and put his down right next to mine and hand him an extra pair of sweatpants that he can wear with the T-shirt he has on now.
He takes his pants off without hesitation which leaves him in just his boxers and a shirt which makes me a little nervous so I turn away and pretend to organize the various things in my pajama drawers.
"Nervous, are you?" he laughs. I feel my cheeks turn red.
"Shut up." I say, flipping him off as he just laughs.
When he's done, I lay in bed and play some music as he lays down awkwardly next to me. I slowly move my hand under the covers and finds his, interlocking our fingers. I feel him move closer to me and he drapes his hand around my waist, turning me on my waist and pulling me into his body so we are so close I can feel his breathe on the back of my neck.
"Goodnight, Will. I love you." he says into the back of my hair.
"I love you too, Mike. Night." I say, trying not to shake with excitement.
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confused - byler
Fanfiction"It's just, sometimes I feel like I'm still going a little crazy." "Well, how about we keep going crazy together." *takes place in the fall of their freshman year - will and el did not move away and this does not follow any of the events of season f...
