Take it off

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𝚣𝚊𝚢𝚗𝚜 𝚙𝚘𝚒𝚗𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚟𝚒𝚎𝚠...

When I was 15, I had to put on a suite, it was all black because it was for my parents funeral

What I didn't realise then was that I was never able to take it off...

I grew, but it grew with me, and I just put things over it. I didn't realise how suffocating it was

Until... Liam

After I lodged a fucking golf-club into Zack's head, and a bullet into Esther's

It was Liam who brought me back to life, I walked out of there with him, I held his hand in the car

We arrived to put home, he takes me to our room, and into the bathroom.

He takes my clothes off... He took the suit off, the suit shredded without me knowing and it fell

We didn't see it, we talked into the shower, I kissed him, over and over again

The suit was taken off, I could breath, but Liam... Liam breathed life into me again

It was then that I knew I wanted to marry him, but I realised I had to wait

I'd known him for 7 months, I still had some healing to do and I wanted to become who Liam deserves

But that night, when we were laying in bed, I tell him, I tell him I want to marry him

Liam, my life, laughs, he asks me if that's my proposal, I tell him no, I tell him he deserves better

And before he says anything, I tell him I'll be the better that he deserves

I contact my old therapist, I hang out with our friends, I walk outside alone in the middle of the night, I meet up with old friends

I become better, I buy a ring, I keep it hidden, Liam graduates, I cheer him on, he gets the job he's dreamt of, I cheer him on

I stood back and let Liam have front line while his career started

I knew not to propose when the moment was rightfully his, but I always had the ring on me incase the right moment would happen

It was our 2 year anniversary, we just got home and Liam was wearing the coat I wore that day

He asked me for a cup of tea to help him sleep.

I never say no to him... He deserves everything he wants, and I plan on giving it to him

I had just finished the cup of tea, then walked towards him

He had found the ring, he was looking at it then he heard me coming

I gave him the cup, took the ring and kissed him, I told him he deserves the perfect proposal, and he'll get it.

I hid the ring better, but I can tell Liam was waiting.

I eventually did, September, 19th, marking the day he walked into my bar and yelled at me