Kabanata 5
Fidget
Yesterday was unbelievable and unimaginable. In his office? He requested for me to come near him so he could touch my thighs just because he's stressed.
Iling lang ang sinagot ko sa kanya na agad naman nitong ikinasimangot na parang batang inagawan at pinagdamotan ng sariling giant stress ball. Hindi naman siya namilit o nangulit. Kahit naaawa na rin naman ako sa kanya kasi talagang mukhang totoong stressed siya ay 'di pa rin ako lumapit sa kanya.
The fear have ruled over my chaotic mind. I just could not take another of those sexually intimate and intense touch.
Afraid, yes, I was scared the moment he asked me to allow him touch my thighs. But when I answered no, and he did not force me?
Relief. I feel at ease and comfort. Totally, I feel safe.
For the time being, I was just folding the brand new underwear and bra.
Embarrassment came rushing up and made my cheeks heat on a blaze of blushes when I remembered yesterday night how Laki and I went to the mall to buy these things.
The moment he asked me what I would going to buy and I ashamedly answered him that I would like to buy new underwear and bra.
Alam niya sigurong grabe na ang pamumula ng aking pisngi at nararamdamang hiya noong gabing 'yon kaya wala na siyang sinabi.
Siya na nga mismo ang nakipag-usap sa saleslady na nakatulala sa mukha niya at parang hindi na yata naririnig ang kung ano mang sinasabi ni Laki noong gabing iyon.
I could not deny the truth that even though he seemed stressed, his charismatic presence was way stressing and depressing other women around him too.
Staring at the bralette that I was about to fold, I stopped my actions for a moment of thinking.
Uncommonly, how did he even know these types of bra? The thought of him being in a stage of denying that he's really a gay crossed my mind.
What if he's really a womanish man? A gay?
He bought me almost all types of it according to my size. Such as bandeau, t-shirt bra, multi-way bra, sports bra and more. He even unbelievably recommended me to wear non-padded bra at home so that it won't be that hard to breathe, and would not be tight against my breasts.
Napatingin ako sa pintuan ng kuwarto ko nang may narinig akong ingay na nagmumula sa baba.
Wondering. What is he doing downstairs?
Napagdesisyunan kong lumabas. I put the bra aside before I went directly out of my room and down the stairs.
Seeing Laki standing by the large entrance of the door with an average older man, I halted on my tracks in the middle of the stairs.
"Ito na ba lahat ng in-order ko, manong?" tanong ni Laki sa may katandaang lalaki na kaharap niya.
The man was wearing a uniform of an online delivery service. He was currently standing outside holding his smartphone.
"O-Opo, sir." Nababakas sa boses ni manong ang kaba. "'Yong laruan po, sir."
Laki accepted the brown coloured box from the delivery man. "Stress reliever 'to saka pampawala raw 'to ng anxiety, manong, 'di ba?" Paniniguradong tanong nito.
"B-Baka po lalong magkaroon ng anxiety 'yong hahawak, sir, e." Komento ni manong na bahagya pang napakamot sa kanyang batok.
I had a glimpse of the box from Laki. The box was not that big. Sakto lang ang laki na mahawakan ng malaking kamay ni Laki.
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