The Magnate's Holiest Sin (Cavanaugh #3)

Kabanata 36

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Kabanata 36

Dirty

Kanina pa lang bago niya ako hinila papasok ng bahay ay tinapon niya na ang hawak na sigarilyo. Sa labas ng bahay ay may iilang lamok pa dahil sa gumagabi na nga.

Parang nabaguhan ako sa pakiramdam nang hawakan niya ang palapulsuhan ko upang hilahin ako. I had missed his touch. His warm calloused hand. The feeling of his skin rubbed against mine. I was longing for it. Thirsty for his touches and tastes. As usual, it felt so safe to be held by him. I did not sense his satisfying touch under his absence in approximately a month. Sa kaniyang silid naman ay iniwan niya akong nakatayo lang malapit sa nakasarang pintuan.

Laki was wearing his usual plain tee shirt paired with denim pants. Pumasok siya sa loob ng banyo ng kaniyang silid. He did not utter even a single syllable of a word. Perhaps instruct me to wait for him, what I would do whilst he go for the bathroom or leastways tell me what he was going to do inside it. Nakasara ang pinto ng banyo, at narinig ko ang munting ingay ng tubig galing sa gripo ng lababo ng banyo. Marahil ay naghuhugas siya ng kamay o 'di kaya'y nilinis ang sarili mula sa sigarilyo. Kaya ay matiyaga akong naghintay.

I wandered my gaze around the whole room. It was all the same. No fixations had changed. The only changes of the room were the sheets, duvet, and pillows of the king-sized bed, and also the window's curtains.

There was his working table near the window, on top of the table was a paper that seemed like a newspaper from here, and beside it was the same lamp as before. Does it still function? I guessed not, it had been five years.

Here in, the lights from the ceiling were on, but it was not that bright. The master's bedroom was shadowy and a little dim. Well, the degree of the light was fair to at least illuminate the place. Its flourescence had equalled to the darkness. Making the vision of this murk room possible to see.

Wondering, what would I be doing today if Mr. Zacharias Cavanaugh and Divine did not bespeak the truth? If I did not eavesdrop that night outside the hotel room in Santa Fe? For certain, I would try my luck to extrude his verity out of him. Later on, if I would not be getting anything from begging and pleading for him to address his main problem as to why he wanted our relationship to split apart? Why he wanted us decoupled? I would stop if I knew for myself that I had done ample actions.

Enough was decent. Excess was desperate.

By all odds, I would have been moving on and try to forget him by now. To omit chasing after him. Only if I was not informed concerning to his current state.

Those thoughts made me feel like my heart was being julienned into thin strips. Letting him go had never crossed my mind even after he filled my head up with his lies. All that mattered to me was to know his reasons and rationales. Because I knew him, he could not do such misdeeds. I never doubted him, if I ever did? Maybe in another circumstances.

As of this moment, I must stop thinking much so. I was hurting myself again. Which was unhealthy for my emotional and mental state.

Lost in sinister reverie, I was led back to my senses when I heard the bathroom's door creaked open.

There, Laki stepped outside the bathroom. He was holding a small clean towel, drying the wetness off his hands. Nagtama ang aming paningin. Sa kaniya ay seryoso at malamig kumapara sa akin na malumanay at mapupungay.