Dear Robin

Screaming Crying Perfect Storms

Tw:
Homophobia
Internalised homophobia
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Overall, I just need to tell you how incredibly sorry I am for the night, the one that ended it all. I should have thought about the fact that you too were in pain and shouldn't have been so cowardly. But I guess you can't change what has already happened.
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It seemed fine to being with, in-fact it was going really well, not anything out of the ordinary. The two girls were sitting in the basement, wrapped in comforting, fluffy blankets as they intently watched the horror movie playing on the tiny TV screen - it was some slasher movie that Robin had insisted on showing her. Extremely focused, the blonde began to plait the elder girls long frizzy hair as she jokingly mocked the way that Nance would always squeeze Robin's wrists tightly at any jump scare. "I swear to god,Nancy Wheeler, you are going to cut off my circulation!"

Unexpectedly, there was a knock on the door, causing them both to jump. "Umm... Robin? Can we speak to you, in private?" Called an uneasy voice from the top of the creaking stairs. Her parents-it had to be... right?

Robin gave the other girl an uneasy smile, clearly anxious, as she hesitantly climbed the uneven stairs,which trembled every time she took a step.

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"Robin,look at me! This isn't right ok? This is absolutely unnatural" shouted her father, pacing around the kitchen while the poor girl sat in the corner, doing her best to hold in the tears and not show how deeply his words were cutting into her skin and her mother stood absolutely silently, a sickening look of disgust plastered across her face.

"How did you find out?" She asked, voice wavering.

"That doesn't matter, Robin, it's just a phase, you'll grow out of this and you'll find a lovely husband- what about that Steve boy he seems-"

"It doesn't just work like that - this isn't just something I can switch on and off or some awkward haircut that I'll grow out of in a few months. Though sometimes I wish I could just change, at the end of the day, this is a part of me and if you truly love me ...surely you could grow to love this element of me too?"

Her eyes were basically pleading desperately for some empathy from them but instead was given a rock-hard glare. Though she did not realise, Nancy was in-fact listening to every word, while the words weren't aimed at her, they still hurt just the same. So she quickly grabbed her bag and left to go back to her car - she just had to get away.

"Well, if you're going to act like this then leave, don't come back until you are ready to do as we say."

All Robs wanted at that second was for her mother to embrace her and rock her slightly -like she did when Robin was a child- and call her 'Robbie' in a soft, loving way. But that didn't happen. She stood up. There was a slam of the door. Swiftly grabbing every small object she valued. She shoved everything into a bag. She heard shouting from the room she had just exited. Then she was gone.
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Knock knock

Nancy turned up the volume of the radio.

Knock knock knock

With a sigh, she rolled down the window and was greeted with Robin's sobs - god, it was heartbreaking but... she just couldn't do this.

" Robin, I care about you so much but-"

"-not enough?"

"I don't know...I just think that maybe I was wrong. Clearly, our relationship isn't working out so we may as well quite while we are ahead"

"But Nance I need you, I really do"

There was a pause.

"I'm sorry"She whispered as she pulled out of the driveway, trying her best to not look at her girlfriend's, well ex-girlfriend's, face as Nancy knew she wouldn't be able to go if she properly saw the distraught look Robin was giving her while the tears carved their way down from her bloodshot eyes before she subtly rubbed them away.This was over. They were done.
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