Confused

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{Short! I know! Sorry for any mistakes}

Harry's POV

No.. he's not dead! He can't be dead! He can't be!

Looking at his sick pale face made me cry my hardest. I never cried that hard since I was born. This can't be happening!

"N-Niall.... P-please" I whisper shaking him a little. The good think that the baby went silent the last minutes so I guess he fell asleep or something.

"Niall..." I whisper. I can't leave this hospital without him awake. I won't call anyone. Not Louis or Zayn nor Liam. Not his or my family. They will get way to anxious and I'll be crying myself dead. I don't know if that's way to die but I can't believe what I am actually seeing. My very very first beloved person, is dead! It's like.. losing your happiness and your heart shattered in pieces.

"N-Niall, y-you know, y-you can't l-l-leave me,right?" I asked stuttering as I look at his chest. He isn't breathing anymore.

"I can't. You can't" I burry my face in my hands and sob. Why? I'll have to be murmured for doing this to him. I'll have to go to jail.

"Harry?" Don't tell me it's-

"What's wrong?" I look up to see the unexpected.

"Mom? What are you doing?"

"I heard that there is a real emergency. Something that is really bad. Honey! Why are you crying?" I sob when she said that and look at the monitor and then at Niall. She followed my daze and her eyes started to water.

"Oh my... What... Is he?" She couldn't even finish the sentence and I nod crying in her arms,as she approached me.

"I can't be a father alone mom. Taking all the care on my own" I sobbed, sniffling a little.

"I know honey, we won't give up right?...M-maybe there can be any miracles" I shake my head laughing bitterly.

"Miracles aren't real"

"They rarely happen, but there is" mom said and I sigh. This is over,there can't be any miracles in this.

"You didn't show me the baby" mom said trying hardly not to talk about Niall.

"I-I. He's right there" Anne stood up and walked to the baby, taking him in her arms. She was crying just like me now.

"I remember holding you like that. You didn't cry at first when you came to the world, but you were very noisy when you turned 7" she laughed sadly, looking at the sleeping baby.

"I hope this isn't real" she whispers looking at Niall who still didn't move. Who am I kidding? He's dead! I just can't believe this thought.

"I'll talk to the doctors and take the baby with me. I'll be back" she walked out of the room with the baby, leaving me alone with Niall. I walk right up to him and lay beside him on the deathly hospital bed. Wrapping my arms around his waist, I remember the day we were cuddling before all this...happened. Niall loved cuddling. He was a cuddly person and I love him. God, I love everything about him.

"Hello N-Niall. Knowing that y-you can't h-hear me right now, I am s-sorry. Heck, I don't even know how to a-apologize, I don't need forgiveness. It's enough when I know you're back to normal. I-I am so s-sorry" I whispered in his ear softy and more tears pour down.

"N-Niall" I burry my face in his hospital gown and smell the sickness. Laying my head on his chest and tear up again. I can't stop crying and my eyes will be completely swollen tomorrow, if tomorrow does exist anymore. I hold up his left hand and intertwine our fingers around them. Of course he can't do it, this breaks me more.

"How I wish you could see our baby.." I said and hiccuped. I miss his voice so much and just re-thinking everything we did in life. How we met, how we went on a relationship, how we went through his -used to be- homophobic father. All this... was amazing, just by having him beside me. Now I always think of his sweet Irish voice that I love. His blue eyes that makes me drawn in bewildered. His smile that drives me crazy and giddy all inside. His soft and gentle touches, that always make my skin rise with goosebumps. His magical kisses, that make my stomach flip with butterflies. All what he did to me, was magnificent. He always had a way with me that made me the luckiest person on planet. If only he was alive....

"Remember when we had a flour fight? Or the one with who will keep the eye contact" I laugh sadly, trying my hardest to imagine Niall awake.

"I wish tha-" what startled me was his chest rumbling a little. First I thought it was my imagination, but then I felt fingers wrap around mines and the monitor started beeping again. My eyes grew bigger and I look to my right, to see Niall breathing through the mask.

"Niall!" I said and he slowly opened his eyes. Tears again of happiness slipped down and I hug him. I can't believe this also. Mom was right! Miracles are real!!!!! I love miracles, I believe in them with all my heart now. Thank you mom, thank you God.

"Ha..arry" he croaked out, through the mask and I cry harder.

"Jesus Christ, you're alive" I said and look down at him. He smiled weakly and I smile brighter. My mom decided to barge in.

"Ha- OH MY GOD! Niall you're alive" she said running to us, with the boy in her arms.

"I-is that-?" Niall pointed at the baby, taking of his mask.

"Ours" I said and mom handed him the baby. Niall sat up slowly before taking the baby in his arms. The baby made a babbling tone and Niall smiled down at him.

"Bring the doctor!!" Mom yelled calling for nurses and doctors.

"He's cute" Niall whispered and I smile down at the two most beloved people I have. The baby smiled up at us toothlessly and we both coo.

"You could've heard his first laugh" I said and Niall frowned.

"I am sorry. I missed it" he said and I laugh. Soon the baby giggled, making Niall smile brightly down at him.

"You're such a beautiful boy" he whispered weakly and the boy laughed.

"This is lovely" mom said, looking at us with happy tears.

"C'mere" I open my arms and we have a group hug.

"I'll leave you two have privacy" mom excused and we bid our goodbyes to her.

"I love you" Niall whispered and I smile. Finally I am hearing it again.

"I love you more" I lean in, capturing his lips on mine.

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A/N

THIS IS NOT THE END

SO DO NOT STOP READING!!!!!

What do you think about this ending? Did I make you happy again :) ?

Well, last chapter I only got one comment from @a_kapadia07 and I think the name was pretty good. I guess you meant Kaiden. Thank you for your help also :) xx.

Ok, so the next chapter will be about Niall and Harry's family (maybe with Louis, Liam and Zayn) in Mullingar, Ireland. They will celebrate and some other things will happen ;) no smut believe me, this is enough xD.

Ok not to spoil anything, you'll be missing the fun next chapter if you didn't read it ;).

(If you don't understand. Niall will get out of hospital and after a week later, they both decide it's time to celebrate this with Niall's family too. So both of them pack their things and head there with the baby)

Niall will be good and healthy as new!!!

Thanks everyone
Nxo