Confused

~40~

Harry's POV

I am really stupid. Yes, I always blame myself for making Niall feel all this pain. It's my fault for doing that to him. I made him go through that pain. Why were I so stupid to not use a condom before I knocked him out?

I sound like a heartless douchbag. And I think I am fucking dumb to not care about this.... we both were drunk to care. But.... how the hell would I know he had female parts!?

I don't know. Our situation is only strange and creepy. I only hope Niall doesn't get depressed of the baby growing thing.

Everyday passes with hell. Niall being in pain and me being stressed about it. We sound like a married couple, yeah, but still our situation is weird. I can't say that even, I have to respect my boyfriend and the baby. So dumb!!! Ugh, I wish time will come back so I could change this. And then again, I am happy to have a baby of my own. With my blood relation and everything.

But I didn't expect it to happen while I'm being 21. It's still the end of August and I am impatient to hold the baby in my arms.

The doctor last appointment told us the baby will be born on December. Well, I only hope it's our anniversary day. 18th of December where I met Niall, the first time in real life.

My little daze was snapped, when Niall moved a little. I open my eyes and look down at him. He's still sleeping. I smile, stroking his blonde locks which are fading away and becoming brown now.

"You always do that" Niall whispered opening one eye and looking adorable at me.

"You're alway on my mind" I smile when he grinned. I brush some hair out of his forehead and he smiles.

"I love you" he whispered burring his head in my chest more. I could feel the bump between us. I kiss his forehead and look between our little gap who is the big bump.

"I am so happy" this isn't a lie through. I stroke his clothes bump and he smiled down at the bump.

"Me too" he looked up at me and I kiss his lips.

"Imagining your baby soon being held in your arms" Niall whispered putting his right hand on mine.

"The most happiest feeling to me, is fulfilling our own family" I kiss his forehead and he chuckled.

"You're right" and I let him fall asleep again.

•

"I am nervous" Niall whispered when we walked to the desk. I look at him and then again at the woman, telling her we have an appointment with Dr. Will. She smiled and welcomed us.

"Don't be. The baby will kick more" I know it's not true, but I tell him that so he can relax. He takes deep breaths and nods signaling that he's relaxed and alright. Some people shot is weird stares and looks of disgust but I chose to ignore them.

"Boys" dr. Will smiled at us while we entered the room.

"Lay down Niall" he said and I sit on a chair waiting for the news. Dr. Will shuts the curtains on Niall and him and I wait patiently on them to finish.

"Harry?" Niall whispered and I knew there was something wrong. So I panic and stand up walking quickly to them.

"No panic the baby is ok. Niall was just scared" dr. Will smiled taking of the gel that's on Niall's stomach.

"What's the baby's gender?" I asked helping Niall up, while Will walks to his desk and writs something down.

"What did you expect Harry?" He asks me back and I was startled.

"Girl or boy are both amazing" I smiled when he smiled back.

"Congratulations. It's a boy" he said and I look at Niall to see him smiling. I grab his hand kissing it and he blushed.

"December will be his birth" the doc informed again and we nod.

"Thank you dr. Will" Niall says and he smiled at us.

"Anytime" and we walk out of the room.

•

"A boy...wow" Niall sighed and I frown at him.

"You wanted a girl?" I asked and he shrugged.

"No. I-I don't know. Maybe the boy...when he grows up he will disrespect us and run away or something. Maybe he'll tell us we are disgusting and behaves in a bad way" Niall whispered frowning and looking at the ground. Why does he always think in the negative ways? I tilt his head up with my index finger.

"Don't ever think that way. He won't ever dare to threaten us" I stare darkly at him and he nods slowly.

"Thank you" he hugs me and I hug back.

"I love you more than you know" I whisper in his ear and he chuckled.

"I love you more than you know too"

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A/N

Sorry I was just busy complaining on Zayn's new song. Like really? He quits one direction and says 'I wanna live a normal 22 year old' then he sings a song with naughty boy!? Did you see what Louis wrote on Twitter to naughty boy?? I was like 'SHOW HIM WHAT YOU ARE LOU!!' Seriously I am breaking down because I am listening to story of my life now and I am crying. I am not feeling well although I am trying to get over the fact that Zayn left. :''''(

Sorry for that. I sound stupid cuz of my crying.

Anyway, next chapter will be a little quicker. Well, I am sick of waiting till this baby is born. Actually I had writer's blog so I didn't know when to update. But here is it.

Sorry for any mistakes and the long waiting

Love you

Nancy xoxo