Confused

~18~

A/N:
I don't know what to think in this chapter. I really hate drama but what if I give it a shot? I already did but maybe there is a lot more. You know Harry and Niall... Fight!!! Yeah it's clear :)

I'll make sure I'll warn you before they suck their faces of xD hahaha. OMG!

Sorry for any mistakes.....
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Harry's POV

It's been 2 bloody weeks and nothing happened. I am getting sick. Ashton is holding me back because he's worried! I didn't knew what's up with him. I just avoided everyone and I couldn't hold it. I just burst out angry. I go to every house I know to search for Niall. I can't find him. And I keep bloody singing the little part I wrote 2 weeks ago. I am damn sick and I can't keep it up. I didn't even notice I had deep black bags under my eyes. My eyes blood shot from nothing. Maybe tiredness. I have to tell you I never cried and never will. It's just awful to think so much about Niall. I keep saying sorry for nothing. And every night I hear Fluffy's whimpers. I know he missed me. I just can't talk to jail right now. I know I made Niall think I am a fag or a dirtbag or whatever he thinks now. I don't know what to do. When I think about going to him I regret it I am sick truly sick.

I heard a knock and I hate stood up to fall again on the couch. I can't. I don't eat. I am starving myself and I didn't eat anything from 3 days ago. I became thinner than expected and I can see my rips poking out of my skin. I stand again and stumble to the door. I didn't even sleep. Hah, wow today will be an adventure.

"Liam? Never thought you'll come here" I laughed sadly and he stood there shocked.

"Harry! You look-"

"Awful. Thanks" I smile sadly and he just stands there shocked.

"No you're overwhelmed" he frowned

"Who cares about me? I am just a trash!" I laugh and go to the couch to lay then.

"Harry you need to rest!" Liam said closing the door and walking to me.

"No. I just want to enjoy life like that"

"You make it hard on yourself. Harry you'll faint. You have to drink and eat something" Liam walked to the kitchen and grabbed water and a green apple. I slapped his hand away when he handed me the food.

"No Liam. Nobody cares! I don't care. I am not worth it"

"You make it harder Harry. You have to stand up and look for yourself. If Niall was your everything go to him and tell him. Not avoid him and make him ignore you. He will win the battle and you'll die sadly. Don't ever let your lover be your enemy" Liam said but was too late because I just laughed and my heart rate began to quicken.

"HARRY!!!" I heard shouts before I blacked out.
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Liam's POV

Shit shit shit. I just called the ambulance and Louis already came so worried. I called Zayn and Niall. Zayn came but..... Niall didn't even pick up. I sent messages no replies. Like, really Niall? You're making yourself a foul. I was about to go to his house when Louis grabbed my arm.

"Don't! You know, our Irish bomb!" Louis said mad I sigh. When Niall is angry he explodes so we just call him Irish bomb.... because he is always angry.

"Zayn go talk to him" I said and the paramedics rang the door. I opened quickly and they went in. Zayn just rushed to Niall's house to tell him everything. I focus on the limp Harry that is carried to the back of the ambulance. Louis and me jump in the cart before Zayn could enter. The doctor closed the door and checked Harry. I look at Zayn and he shook his head. Mouthing 'he'll come later' I just sigh looking at the helplessly curly lad. I was really rude to him but now, I don't know. He seems like my really close best friend.

"What's up with him doctor?" Louis asked.

"He seemed to have a panic attack" the doctor spoke up and we all sigh. We arrive at the hospital and the two other boys go to the waiting room. I just check in and the lady smiled at me.

"Thank you sir" she smiled and u smiled back walking carefully to the other guys.

"I feel something bad is coming up" Zayn chewed his nails and Louis paced back and forth. I rest my chin on my right hand and wait patiently to the doctor to come out. The door opened and we all look up.

"Liam Payne?" The doctor asked. Well, it's a she.

"Yeah?" I stood up and walked to her.

"Hi. I am doctor Ellie. Nice to meet you" she smiled and I smile back shaking her hand. I could see Louis glaring at me but I just ignore him.

"So, we made some tests. Heart beat and the blood. We are sure that Harry styles had a sudden panic attack" I nod telling her to continue.

"But the bad thing is..... that he was drinking a lot of alcohol the last 2 weeks and that makes our rescue poorer. We don't know if he can live or not. Harry styles is now in a coma. I might let you visit him now. But please don't disturb him" she sighed and I nod understanding. We all move calmly to the room and look at Harry. He's in a hospital gown and a heart beat tester is beeping beside him. It was steady and normal and I thanked god.

"Here, look at what you did?" I looked at Zayn. I knew what all happened and I feel very angry.

"You can cause him death and he is only 20 years. You are a killer" I said and they sigh sitting down on the chairs in the corner. I just sit on the couch and look at Harry hopefully. Harry, you can go through it, please. If I was the one he loved I would've held his hand but the one he loves doesn't care slightly so-

"Where is he?" Niall entered the room and we shush him. Guess, he's an ass! I stood up and walked to him and he looked at me. Messed hair!

"I guess you're the one with this who caused that" I gestured to Harry and Niall chocked on the air.

"I-I didn't know it w-will go that f-far" he started to stutter. Will Niall cry? Like actually cry? I never saw him crying. Niall walked to Harry and took Harry's hand in his.

"I am sorry. I am so dumb. So so dumb" Niall said and I could hear the beeping of Harry's heart beat get faster. Aww! Look! This is love!

"I don't know what to say!" Niall sniffled but I couldn't see any tears. I swung an arm around Niall and he started crying. Small un-hearable sobs and soft crying filled my ears. I want to cry to but couldn't. It's like a romantic movie. And they are sick.

"W-What did the d-doctor say?" He stuttered whipping his tears away.

" she said: Harry was drinking a lot of alcohol the last 2 weeks and that makes his rescue poorer. They don't know if he can live or not. He is now in a coma"

"I caused all this. I caused it" Niall squeezed Harry's hand and kissed it.

"I-I am sorry, h-Harry. I won't leave you again" I couldn't tell him it's late. But what made me shocked is that his heart beat is slowing down.

"Louis call the doctor. Fast" I said and he rushed out side yelling their names.

"Niall move away. They'll make him live don't worry"

"No I can't leave him after what I did to him" Niall cried more.

"Get out the way" a doctor yelled and a nurse kicked us out. We wait again in the waiting room.

"It's fucking my fault" Niall cried harder and I sit beside him. Zayn sat on Niall's right and Louis is talking to someone on the phone.

"No it isn't" I said. How I wish Harry will be ok?

I wish nothing of this shitty drama happened!

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A/N:
I wrote that while crying. It's really like romantic movies. Your lover enters the hospital. You go sit beside him/her and take her/his hand. It's really sickening and I can't hold it. Hope this didn't distract your day.

-Nancy xoxo