Confused

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A/N:
Isn't she lovely. Isn't she wonderful. Isn't she precious. Less than one minute old. And I never thought the love would be as lovely as she, but isn't she lovely, made from love! -Harry Styles X-Factor.

Ok you can trash this 's' away.Much nicer ha? ;)

I thought this chapter will be more cooler if I put a song you can hear while you read. So here ya go---->

song : where do broken hearts go- one direction

Harry's POV

-enjoy
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Harry's POV

"I hate myself" I mumbled and heard the door of my house close. I was watching how Niall and Fluffy were walking out. Niall seemed relieved and I was glad because I feel like I've been a dick these last 2 days. I don't know what's holding me from talking to Niall. It's like we're a gap from each other now. I just called my mum and talked about Niall. She said she was proud to hear that I love him but she was upset because she can't meet him right now. I promised her she would see him. And I don't know if this promise will be made sooner or later. Because I think it's later. I am still confused as well and scared. Niall of curse is thinking I am a dick right now.

"What did he say?" I asked Ashton and he sat silent. He didn't speak and I know this is bad. Really bad.

"He's negative. Very negative. He wouldn't listen to me" Ashton sighed and I began to panic. Am I too late? I hope not.

"I have to get him" as soon as I stood up Ashton pulled me down.

"No! He-uh- he is angry so if you talked to him he'll be like a bomb that just exploded. I know Niall" Ashton shook his head and I sigh. I hope he's fine. I can't just sit like that. He.... He can be angry. And when people are angry they do dumb things. Things that they will regret.

"I'll go check on Zayn" I said standing up.

"No. Zayn is at work"

"But it's 5pm" I argued.

"He-uh.... He has a night shift" I huff and sit back.

"Harry just forget it"

"No way"

"Anyway he told me that you're my boyfriend" I zoned in this word. So he was upset that I didn't walk the night we went to the night club with him, right?

"Ashton! Go home. I wanna be alone" Ashton sighed standing up saying his last goodbye and closing the door. It's not really the last. I go up my room and start a song. I am really bored so I just thought to wright a song. I put my I-phone on voice record and start thinking.

"I just counted all my mistakes and there is only one. Yeah, it was one. Standing out from the list of the things I've done to you. All the rest of my crimes don't come close. To the look on your face when I let you go. So I built you a house from... From what.... Oh, a broken home. What now?! Then I wrote you a song with the words you spoke, yeah it took me some time but I figured out how to fix up a heart that I let down" I stop the record and listen to it a lot. I write it down in a paper and start singing it again.

"That's much better now" I mumbled tapping my feet on the rhythm.

"Counted all my mistakes and there's only one. Standing out from the list of the things I've done. All the rest of my crimes don't come close. To the look on your face when I let you go. So I built you a house from a broken home then I wrote you song with the words you spoke. Yeah, it toke me sometime but I figure out. How to fix up a heart that I let down" I sigh smiling at what I did. It was typical to my moment now. But I frown again because Niall isn't in my arms right now. It feels really sad and I can't just waist this thought.

I stand up and pace backwards and forwards. I need to go to him before he does something wrong. I still remember the night Zayn kissed Niall. I was about to push him away but Ashton stopped me and reminded me that they're drunk so nothing could happen. But still I didn't forget what Zayn did. Niall isn't his and he won't ever take Niall from me. Mine hope Niall didn't just go to him and tell him he loved him. It will overwhelm everything we did together. You know, living without Niall is like you lost a leg from your body. It's strange but true. This is true love. Not just some junk!?!?! The thing that startled was the door bell. I go down and open the door to just close it again. I don't want to see him.

"Please, we need to talk" he put his feet between the door and the doorframe so I can't close it. I growl and look at him.

"Fuck of Zayn!!" I said making my voice dangerous and deep. I am angry if you could tell.

"Harry it's about Niall" Zayn said. I open the door slightly.

"Tell me he's your boyfriend. Tell you fucked him. Tell me you both said 'I love you's" I yelled. He entered the house and closed the door. He dragged me to the couch and sat me down. He just sat in front of me on the coffee table.

"It's not that" Zayn frowned. Yes,yes from when did he care?

"Niall is suffering in the wrong way" he said and I laughed sadly. My laughter became louder wen I saw Zayn's face. He was confused about my laughter.

"Did you actually say that? I already know it before you came in this!" I laughed and he shook his head.

Oh Niall, you make me crazy.

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A/N:
I am sorry I was busy. I was dared to bring a gift to a teacher I hate. And I so damn took time for his shit. Yes it's his. I am sick, and I have to do it. A dare!!!! I just brought him chocolates. :P he is tall and skinny. He looks sickening and I just simply hate him :(. Save meeeeee..........

P.s. He has blue eyes and brow hair. I am sorry if I made you disturbed. I just had to let it out.

-Nancy xoxo