Confused

~15~

A/N:
I promised! Here you go chap. 15. I hope you won't be angry at me when you finish this chapter. Sorry xD.

-enjoy
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Niall's POV

"Woof" Fluffy entered in the room and I just smile sadly because he had the puppy eyes face and it made me more sad. He's like telling me 'are you fine?' It really feels stupid but I can't help it. My little buddy is here to help me, but sadly he's just a pet (a small one also)

"Hey buddy. How are you?" He sat on my lap and licked my chin. I just laugh and ruffle his head. He started whimpering and I pouted making a puppy face too.

"I am sorry fluffy for making you see me like that" he woofed angrily and I suppose he was complaining about my 'sorry' word. I know it's stupid.

"Shall we go out for a walk? This will make me a little fine and you'll be happy" I suggested and he's face light up. His tongue picking out of his mouth and his tail moving rapidly of happiness.

"Let's go" I change to casual clothes and we go out. When Harry and I were walking Fluffy the last time, we taught him how to walk beside us without any ropes (or whatever they call it). I just locked the house and walked out silently, enjoying the clear air and the snowy floor.

"It's almost Christmas" I remembered and just thought about it. I'll just celebrate it with my family back in Ireland. Maybe I'll leave fluffy for Harry and go back to Christmas for my family. Like I used to do before all this mess came. It's awful eventually. Seeing me between death by my father and Louis. I never thought about Louis being my friend just to know I am not gay, so he could tell my dad everything is fine. But what if I came back to Ireland? No no no, I just shivered. The thought just makes me scared. My father is strict. Oh my god.... what if Louis told my dad I've been chatting with people to..... *cough* ok never mind that. I am just rambling about this strange thought. I was also really sad when my uncle was standing there in shock because my dad just slapped him. His right cheek was bloody red and I just gasp running upstairs. To note that, I was 12 years old when all that happened. Then.... When I turned 18 I said I'll be moving away from my family to continue my studies, but then my dreams were over. I couldn't make it till college and I was like... a mess without a house or anything. So, when I met Liam and Louis my best mates since childhood, they took me in until I found a job and got a house of my own. This lasted 2 years and finally I got it. At least I got 1 goal out of 50 or more! But today I have only 2- no 3 goals. To stop my dad being a homophobe. To let Louis stop spying on me. And also to let Zayn know I don't like him back without hurting me. The is another goal that I already dumbed. It's not really important.... I wish Harry would realize what he's doing to me these last 2 days.

"Niall?" I huff when I realize the voice. Wow, today is a day full of surprises.

"What"? I snap continuing to walk. I hate drama but I think this is it.

"Listen"

"Shut up Ashton!" I yelled and Fluffy made an angry noise. He showed his little teeth to Ashton and I was like 'go rip his pants of, Fluffy!' Wired!?

"Can you please stop this puppy? I need to talk to you!"

"Oh maybe you'll be saying Harry is your boyfriend!" I snap and he stood shocked.

"And I won't stop my dog. He does what he wants because he is the only one who cares. Maybe Liam also. What friend are you, Ashton? The one that gets jealous? Or the one who just what's everything bad for the others?" I turn around and continue walking.

"C'mon Fluffy. We'll walk more than talk today" I said and Fluffy shot Ashton one last glare before running to my side. When we reached the park I push the snow away from the branch and sat on it.

"Woof!!" Fluffy seemed at least happy. Someone (or a pet) to comfort me. He can't talk but at least his actions make me happy. Fluffy was the first responsibility for us. I mean Harry and me. We aren't us! We're....... I don't know. It's pathetic. I am really pathetic. Damn! I am the only one who gets pathetic at the end. Why should I always feel this loneliness rush in my vines. Even guilt washed over me and I don't why. I didn't do anything wrong! Why should this be hard. Fuck me. Fuck life. Fuck everything!!!!! I am frustrated and I can't believe it. It's like I'm feeling the same feeling I had before all this happened. All this bullshit. He's such an asshole! You know who'm I am talking about. I have 3 assholes in my life now. First of all is Louis. Second is Ashton. Then the third is Harry. There is a something telling me he's just playing with my feelings. Fuck all of you! I hope you all oh to hell!!!! Ugh, why am I so damn angry. I stand up and run to the house that I want to be in right now. Fluffy of course followed me. I spotted Ashton was looking at me confused but left me without saying a word. I know I on the door and wait till it was opened.

"Yea-Niall? What are you-" I cut him of with me pulling Zayn's sleeve and kissing his lips. It felt wrong, but it was the positive thing to do. I hope this will change these things to good things. I don't care what dad thinks now or what Louis will tell him. All what matters is that I am away from my assholes. And the only person I have is Zayn.

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A/N:

Gosh! I am like... WOW!!!
Real drama! It's real drama everyone!!!!
Oh god I am really so happy. I haven't slept it's like I am still awake. So I said it's good to update confused the second time today. It's 3 am and I don't know what to do. Hope you liked the drama.

-Nancy xoxo