depressed m reader x comfort characters one shots.

eddie and steve- dysphoria.

Me, Eddie, Steve and the rest of the gang are at a pool party. I'm the only one who hasn't jumped in it because I'm wearing my binder. I look at all the guys there and see them being comfortable with their body's, i bet they couldn't even imagine how lucky they are to have flat chests and deep voices.
I hate myself. I'm ugly and have a girly voice with a girly body when all i want to do is be a boy.. I'll never get there. I'll never be perfect or be handsome enough for me or anyone else. Every time I look at the mirror i get depressed.
I snap out of my train of thought only to realize I'm now shaking intensely. I try to calm down but fail doing so so i just decide to lie and tell them I'm sick and gonna go home.
"Guys, I'm gonna head out, I'm feeling sick sorry. Have fun." I say with a shaky voice.
I see them all wave bye and go back to what they were doing but i get a concerned look from Eddie and Steve Wich i just brush off.
I walk away from the party and as soon as I'm out of sight i drop to the ground sobbing.
"S/n? S/n!" Steve says running to me.
"Are you ok? What happened?" Eddie asks.
"It's nothing I'm sorry for ruining the party.."
Eddie grabs my chin and makes me look at him.
"Y/n, we know when your ok and when your not so don't lie to is ok?"
I look down and nod in response.
"You can trust us." Steve says holding my hand to make them shake less.
"I just... I wanna look and be like a guy so fucking bad but instead I'm ugly as fuck and girly and i can't even be in a pool party because of my binder.. i just feel like i don't belong anywhere or like I'm not enough and I'm just so tired sometimes i just wish everything would just disappear and leave me alone. I can't do this anymore i wish I could look like a normal guy and not have fucking breasts that i hate.." i say while crying and holding them for emotional support.
"Oh y/n.. I'm so sorry you have to go through that.. i can't say i know what's that like but i can say one thing, you are masculine enough. You are manly, you have a cool voice, your strong and handsome and honestly the best guy we know. I know that you can't see yourself the way we see you but you are the perfect guy and you don't need to be cis to be valid. And your always going to be enough for us."
"We love you y/n. And you are handsome in any way you choose to be. Remember that our life is way better because we met you."
"Thank you guys... I feel a bit better. I'm sorry for ruining your night.i love you two."
"You didn't ruin anything, we are always happy when we're with you. We love you."
"Come here." Steve says as he pulls me and eddie closer to a hug.
After that we stay in that comftarble silence for the rest of the night.
(Ok ik what your thinking, weren't they cold? Shut up idk😭 also I'm very sleepy writing this sorry if it's bad.)