Stray Kids Angst Collection

Dark Haired boy (Changlix)

A/N 

This is another really difficult topic to write about, just remember, whatever you are going through, you are not alone. There's always help if you search for it, a solution, a way out. Just, though it's hard, don't give up ever, OK? It may be hard to believe right now, but things do get better eventually. I've also been bullied before, of course not to this extent, but yeah, and I made it out, so.. yeah. I'm really terrified about ragging in University, and I'm about to start next week, so.. yelp. Hopefully, it'll be alright...  😥 Why am I oversharing random info? Sorry.

Anyways thank you all for reading my terrible stuff till now.

Planning to write this in 2 or 3 different parts, kinda like a mini story, let's see how it goes.

Big online Bang Chan style hug to everyone who's reading, thank you so much!

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T/W- mentions of bullying and physical abuse.

Felix pov

'If I don't make eye contact, they might walk past me without noticing' muttered Felix under his breathe, the blonde could already feel his heart racing, as he watched them approaching him.

'HELLO FREAK' yelled a big boy from the group as he slammed Felix onto the locker. 'You seem kinda lost, want some help?'

He stumbled back, and shook his head violently. 'N-no- please, n-'

The boy grabbed the books Felix was holding in his hand and violently tossed them out the window nearby.

Felix tried to scamper away, but the heavy boy grabbed his shoulder, and pressed down on it hard.

'You can't just leave like that' he whispered into his ear.

They dragged him into a dark room. A tall basketball player landed a punch on his chin, the boy let out a small whimper.

'Oh, so you like that? Here's some more-' he pulled Felix by the hair, and tossed him onto the floor, and they started to take turns at kicking the poor, thin, frail boy again and again, until he felt like the air had left his lungs.

'He's fucking gay, what a freak! So disgusting, I think I'll have to shower after this, because I touched him!', one of them laughed out. They all giggled in response.

The tall one grabbed him by the collar, pulled him up, and threw him hard onto the ground. They slammed the door and left him there.

Felix was tired. He brushed off the dirt on his shirt, wiped the blood off his face with his hand, and got up. He had been going through the same thing every single day of his life for the past 6 months, he really wanted things to get better.

But there wasn't much of a chance for that was there?

He tried to open the door- he needed to get to class. Of course, it was locked. What did he even expect?

The janitor always came to open this room after 10 minutes of class starting. He knew about the fact that Felix almost always got locked up in here.

Felix sat back down in the dark room with a heavy thump and let out a big sigh.

Things were never going to get better.

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After hiding in the bathroom during lunch, and waiting for the bell to ring, he ran across the hallway, and made his way to math class. For the first time in days.

That's when their math teacher announced that a new student would be joining and asked him to the front. He remembered when he was asked to do the same, 7 months ago. He wished he could go back to that time, and make it not happen, but... it didn't matter what he wished. Ever. And definitely not now. He was a nobody who couldn't even protect himself.

A short dark haired boy got up from behind Felix and he caught a glimpse of his face. He was the most beautiful person he had ever seen in his life. His soft chocolate eyes were so kind, and his dark demeanour was scary, but calm and collected. He was so perfect.

'Hello, I'm Seo Changbin. I'll be studying here from now.'

All the girls gathered around him during the breaks, and he was always being thrown praises from everybody, and being invited to all the parties.

But none of that mattered to Felix, he continued his life being bullied, with no one ever caring, same as always. It didn't matter who came, or left.

One cold winter day, his sweater and coat were 'stolen' and torn apart, and scattered across the bathroom floor. He was left with only a t-shirt and his gym pants. He was visibly shivering in the cold classrooms, and this was met with great chuckles from the back seats, where his bullies sat.

That evening, while he was walking home, they followed him and forced him into a dark alley. After punching the boy half dead, they thought it would be funny to pull off his shirt and throw him into a lake, from where they left, laughing amongst themselves over a job 'well done'.

Felix managed to make it out of the water. Despite just wanting to stay inside and let it all end, something always stopped him. Maybe it was because he was a coward. He wouldn't have been this pathetically bullied if he wasn't a coward. If he was.. braver.

He was shivering very severely, and his fingers and toes were blue. He just had to get home and the rest of it, he could take care of. His parents barely came home. But with barely 10 yards to reach home, he collapsed on the cold pavement caked with ice. His legs felt paralyzed. 

'I'm going to die now', he giggled at the thought, 'well life sucked, I'm not gonna miss it.'

And just as he felt like he was starting to fade, somebody picked him up.

'Hey- I'm going to call an ambulance', said a warm soothing voice.

'N-no.. juust home-' he pointed at his house

'OK' nodded the blurry face.

Felix pressed his head onto the warm sturdy chest. 'C-can- the pin code is 150800'

He felt the man nodding. He wondered if he could trust the man into his house, but he was almost dead, what could he have to lose?

The man placed him on a couch and turned on the heater,  and grabbed a bunch of warm blankets and sweaters from a cupboard and placed it all on Felix.

Pretty soon, he could at least see clearly enough to tell that the man who saved him was none other than the new popular kid, Seo Changbin. 

'I'll make you something warm', he said, getting up from where he was seated, observing Felix.

'Hot Chocolate?'

Felix looked at him, and not really being able to function still, he decided he needed this stranger to help, 'Yes, thank you.'

After 10 minutes, the boy came in with a huge mug full of hot chocolate.

'Took me a while to find all this stuff, but here we are', he smiled.

'So- how did a boy from my math class end up shirtless and drenched in cold water, beaten half to death in the middle of the street?'