Stray Kids Angst Collection

Silent Cry (Bang ChanxReader Abandoned)

'I'm home baby girl', Chan called out. It was around 10pm.

No response.

'Y/N?'

No response still.

Worried, he ran into the bedroom to the sight of a shivering small form laying on the bed crying.

'Honey!' He ran to his girlfriend's side. 'What's going on?'

You didn't even look up.

'Go away Chris', you sobbed out loudly.

He was both puzzled and concerned, and hesitated before responding.

'If some space is what you need, I totally understand.' Chan said. 'But I'll stay if you need me.'

You clutched onto his firm hand and held it with all of your might, the thought of being alone made you feel worse.

'Please don't leave me.'

He got on the bed, and you sat up next to him, still shivering, and placed your head on his shoulder.

'I will always be here for you baby girl' he said, gently stroking your hair.

You took a deep shaky breath. 'Can we just stay like this for a while?', you asked him.

'Of course', he said.

After an hour of just sitting there quietly, him gently holding your head, you looked up at him. His face without makeup looked extremely exhausted, with large dark circles under his tired eyes, and his frizzy dark hair was awry and out of place. But he looked down at you, and smiled the most beautiful smile you had ever seen. You had been dating him for 2 years, but his smile never failed to melt away your worries.

You sighed deeply, 'My dad called.''

His soft features drifted into a deep frown.

'After all these years?'

'..yeah, he just got back here from France, and he wants to meet me.'

'And how do you feel about it?'

'I don't know... Chris, how am I even supposed to be feeling right now? He left me and my mom when I was 8, and he didn't even bother to explain why. And when he came back 10 years later, he came to ask my mom to sign the divorce papers so he could marry his girlfriend, with whom he had had a daughter with. I spent my entire childhood wondering why he left, and my mom always blamed it on me. She said they were happy before giving birth to me, and that I was an accident, and her worst mistake. This man ruined my life, and he was never once there for me in my entire life. I... I'm so angry, but I can't bring myself to hate him either..' you started choking on your words, 'I don't know why he called me, he never even cared for me. And it's so frustrating that he's calling now.'

'I was alone in this world, he was never the dad he was supposed to be, and I know it isn't my fault, but I don't even have anyone else to blame it on... I just- I don't- I..' you were sobbing very loudly now.

'Come here', he said throwing his arms apart into a big hug, and you cried into his arms. 'It's all going to be fine. I'm here for you', he said.

After having no one to ever depend on your entire life, his reliable shoulders seemed so strong, so warm, and you finally felt like you weren't all alone anymore. You had him. He was right there, holding you when you were crying, unlike you dad, who's face you couldn't even properly remember anymore.

'Chan.. please, don't ever leave me', you begged, looking for his affirmation.

'I will not. You are the woman in my life, my femme fatale, I don't even need to look at you to know you'll always be here for me. I cannot explain in words how much you have helped me. So this time, let me help you. I'm not going to just leave you behind suddenly ok?'

'Thank you.' you said, uncontrollable tears rolling down your cheeks.

'And, if you're not ready for this yet, just call him and tell him that, it is totally ok. I f you want to see him and you're up to it, I'll drive you wherever it is you're meeting with him myself, and I'll wait outside for you till you're done, ok?'

You pulled yourself out of his arms and looked at your handsome man, wondering what in the world it is that you did to deserve him. You smiled weakly and nodded.

'Chan.. I love you so much', you said.

He stretched out his hand to wipe away the tears brimming in your eyes, 'I love you more.'

You held his hand, with both of yours and placed it in your lap.

'I don't deserve you.'

'I don't deserve someone as beautiful as you either, but you know how the world is, it's so very unfair', he said a big smile forming on his pale face.

'My God, Chan get some sleep! You're starting to look like a ghost!' You yelled at him, suddenly realising that it had been 4 days since you'd seen him last, he was always working away in his studio. You were concerned about how much he overworked himself.

'I'm sorry', he said chuckling.

'You're really annoying, you know that?' you said returning his laugh with a smile.

'Am I?' he said winking at you.

That was it.

You crawled over unattractively into his lap and kissed him.

He returned the kiss, his hand softly touching your jaw.

He smelled so good. And you loved him very, very much.

'Ok, you said, pulling away. It's time to go to sleep now, you probably haven't slept in a really long time, I'm genuinely concerned for you now.'

'OK' he said pouting.

He was way too cute to be real. You sighed, turned off the light, and lay down next to him.

He too lied down and rolled over as closely to you as is humanly possible, and engulfed you in a humongous hug. And you hugged him back.

He kissed your cheek. 'I know that its far too late to hear this now-', he said, 'but it never was your fault your dad left you, and it never will be. He left by his own choice and will, leaving behind a very small young daughter. So you do get to be angry and sad, and frustrated. Don't hold yourself back, saying it's your fault, I know its hard, but you are not fighting this alone, I'll be by your side. I promise I'll treat you like the beautiful person that you are.'

You were starting to get teary eyed again.

'And I know that I am very lacking, but I hope I can be good enough to be your-'

'You already are, Chris', you said and kissed him softly.

'Now sleep! for real!'

Chan's pov

'Alright' he melted into her tiny hands and watched her face as she drifted off into a peaceful sleep. She was one of the best things that had happened to your life. You were worried about her interacting with her dad after so long, but you'd be there for her. You glanced at her small body on the pillow and hugged her tighter. You were going to keep her safe, and never let go. You were going to show her what love was- the love she never got from her parents when she needed it the most, and the love she needed from herself.

You contentedly fell asleep in her arms.

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