Lords Series #1: Lord's Obsession (UNDER MAJOR REVISION)

CHAPTER 32

VALOUISE SNAPPED OUT AND found tears falling from her eyes. She pulled her hand away from Colden’s and immediately wiped off her tears.

Colden stood up and looked at her with an unexplainable look in his eyes.

“You were once mine.” Colden whispered but Valouise answered him with total silence.

Remembering that she looked exactly like her, she felt sick. She is not his’. She is not Galina. Maybe she was but not anymore. She is sick of being called the person she isn't. They see her as Galina but never Valouise. They hurdle, they fight, they love Galina and not her. She is just a reflection of a person she isn't.

Nasasaktan siyang tanggapin pero totoong hindi siya ang rason sa lahat ng ‘to. Hindi siya ang mahal nila. Nakakagalit. Nakakalungkot.

“Nakakasuka.” Tanging lumabas sa bibig ni Valouise. Tumayo siya at nilingon si Colden. With raging and doleful eyes, she stared at him.

“You just want me because you see her in me.” Bulong ni Valouise. She swallowed the thick lump on her throat. Her breathing started to get heavy, words were stumbling from her mouth, she couldn't speak properly, her throat tightened and her chest started to ache. She wanted to scream but she couldn't. She couldn't find her voice.

I don't understand! I can't speak. I can't scream. It makes me want to throw up. It hurts! I'm hurting. Why can't they understand?

In response to her pain that she couldn't scream, she pushed the table away, swiping the things around the place. She was crying hysterically, kept throwing everything she held and finally her voice came out.

“Aaahhh!” She screamed in frustration and pain.

She cried, she screamed but no loud voice could wipe out the pain she felt inside. She clenched her chest and started to hit herself. Colden was about to come closer to stop her.

“Leave! Leave me alone!” She yelled that it made him take a step backward.

“Leave!” She cried.

Colden, who felt defeated, vanished. Valouise’s vision was blurry, covered with her own tears. She wanted to stop but it just wouldn't. She laid down and covered her face with her hands as she sobbed.

After a moment, she calmed down and wiped her own tears. She stared at the empty ceiling and Bylur’s face is what came to her  muddled mind. She felt crying again after her heart ached remembering him.

“I miss him!” She muttered beneath her breath.

She tried to collect herself and after a long moment, she sat down, feeling so down. She sighed as she wiped her wet cheeks and forced a bittersweet smile.

Pinili mo ‘to, Valouise. Pinili mong iwan siya.

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What happened after that incident left Valouise completely astonished.

WHY WOULD MITHRAN LET COLDEN LIVE WITH ME? She screams inside her head. She was dumbfounded, utterly in disbelief, frustrated — she was overwhelmed!

“Mithran!” She screamed as she dropped the colander from her hand.

“I agreed na lumayo. Ang layo ko na kay Bylur, hindi na kami nag uusap. I gave up my life in the Philippines just for your fucking theory! Pero ito? Sumusubra na ‘to!” Galit n'yang asik.

She was breathing heavily, trying to contain her anger.

“I don't want to live with him!” She screamed again.

“Valouise Hermosa!” Mithran shouted her full name wishing to make her shut up but it enraged her more.

“You don't have any right to shout my name at me like that! I don't owe you anything.” Galit din biting diin.

Mithran sighed in frustration, Colden was standing in one of the corners of the room, silent. Mithran gritted his teeth and sighed again before talking.

“Kailan mo ba maiintindihan na ginagawa ko ‘to para sa kapakanan n'yong tatlo. I want to save the three of you.” Kalmadong sagot ni Mithran.

“From what? Save us from what, Mithran?” She asked frustratedly.

“From your fate of dying, Valouise! You'll die and when you do, what do you think will happen to Colden and Bylur?” Mithran snapped out.

Valouise was taken aback by what he said and froze.

“Mamamatay ka, Valouise! If I won't be able to change the pattern of your life, not only yours but our lives will be ruined. Again! I don't want that to happen. Ayaw kong mamatay ka.”

“I saw it, okay? I saw how you'll die and how your death ruined our kin!”

“We don't need to push this through, Mithran.” Finally, Colden opened his mouth. He looked at Valouise who was unable to speak and sighed.

“But Colden—”

“She’s not ready yet. Let's give her some time.” Colden said calmly and turned his back on them.

“Why?” Mahinang tugon ni Valouise. Napatingin sa kaniya ang dalawang lalaki at parehong walang ideya siyang tinignan.

“Why would you live with me after those threats you've made? Why are you doing this, Colden?” Valouise asked with her voice shaking in anger.

Colden turned his back once again and answered, “I never once want to kill you. I want to save you, which I've failed to do before.”

Pagkatapos sabihin ‘yon ay agad umalis si Colden, walang lingon at ano mang pasabi. Agad namang sumunod si Mithran at naiwan si Valouise mag-isa sa bahay.

“And now everything is starting to make sense.” Bulong nya sa sarili.

“Isa kang sumpa sa mga taong nasa paligid mo, Valouise.”

Nabalot siya ng takot sa narinig n'ya kay Mithran. Mamamatay siya? Paano? Kailan? Ngayong nagsisimula nang magkaroon ng saysay ang lahat, pero mas nagiging magulo ang lahat. Gusto n'yang mas maiintindihan pa ang nangyayari pero hindi nya alam kung handa na ba ang utak at puso n’ya.

Even thinking of her own death is shattering and scaring her, and she knows far more worse lies behind what she knows. Will she be able to face everything and accept it? The fate that awaits her— her death, their loss, the chaos she might bring.

She never expected anything to turn like this. All she knew was she lived normally and quietly before but everything suddenly took an awful turn.

Natatakot ako…

FAIRY
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