bittersweet

chapter nine

"Louisa i was thinking, i want to see some of your artwork" David remarked as both of them walked down the streets of London back to Louisa's apartment.
both Louisa and David left Iggy's quite sharpish that morning, luckily Iggy didn't hear anything as he was still flat out on the sofa. so Louisa wrote a quick note and left it on the kitchen table, thanking him for letting both of them stay and apologising for the inconvenience. both of them contributed to clean up the living room before they left also, as it was in a hellish state for Iggy to tackle on his own.

"oh i don't know" Louisa blushed, she always tended to become shy when talking about her artwork. she wasn't embarrassed, she just wasn't used to vocalising nor showing anyone her work. but she felt flattered nonetheless, flattered that David even remembers, as she mentioned it to him the first night they met.
"no i insist Louisa, i'm intrigued" David grinned down at Louisa, he wore his black shades as usual,  which he always wore when in public. he still looked a bit mentally drained behind his tiresome eyes, but he still looked heart swellingly handsome to Louisa as they strolled down Piccadilly.
"oh alright fine, when we get back to my apartment" David nodded in excitement. he found it rather adorable how she blushed at him mentioning his interest to her art.

throughout that morning David's phone rang constantly every two seconds. he looked rather panic stricken whenever he read who was calling him, which concerned Louisa greatly.
"who keeps calling you?" David furrowed his eyebrow in frustration, "it's Angie."
"she isn't used to me leaving her for more than two days after an argument. so she is obviously suspicious or maybe surprisingly concerned for me."  "which i highly doubt",Louisa dropped her eyeline to the floor, it made her cringe at the mention of Angie. it's all well and good that she is spending time with a rockstar, David Bowie, but Angie is the reality check that brings Louisa's hopes of having a relationship with David down completely. she almost grew angry at him mentioning her name, which is ultimately crazy as Angie is rightfully David's wife.
"shit. i'll have to call her, i'll just let her know i won't be home for a while. that sounds reasonable right?" Louisa just chuckled lightly at David's totally unreasonable remark, he is very pure hearted she thought. how can someone like Angie be so mentally demanding and draining to such a kind soul.
"yeah it does, i'll meet you back in my apartment then?" David smiled a guilty smile and placed his hands on both of her shoulders lightly. it was such a subtle touch, but she felt tingles erupt on her skin.
"of course love. i wouldn't miss your artwork for the world" and he placed a small kiss on the midst of her head, Louisa blushed like a little girl at him.

let's hope Angie doesn't cause too much trouble.

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"where the fuck are you David? i'm sick of calling you" Angie practically nearly deaf-end David on the other end of the line. the bitter sound of her shallow voice gave David chills. her voice was the complete opposite of Louisa's, Louisa's was; soft, delicate and welcoming. whereas Angie's juxtaposed every description of Louisa's completely.
"i'm just having time to myself for a bit Angie, i'm still working on my album which needs to be done in three months" David rubbed his eyebrows in utter frustration, Angie wasn't reasonable in every reason David supplied her with. Angie sniggered at the other end of the line, "i don't give a shit David, i'm your wife. if any paparazzi find you, all the papers will be suspicious of our relationship. and you don't want that do you?" it was the rhetorical questions which caught David out, she always managed to manipulate and pollute his mind of toxic potential outcomes of situations that would never happen. he always felt delusional when talking to her.
"no-no i don't" David whispered blankly, "if you don't come home tomorrow, i will be obliged to tell your manager that you have gone off the rails with drugs and your album cannot be released." David simply wanted to smash his phone in pure outrage right there and then. Angie was tedious, she knew how to push the right buttons to get her own way. if she ever said anything of that sort to his manager, his manager would believe it right away. David always tended to be in tricky situations, which always resulted in warnings off his manager which has happened too many times for both of their likings.
David was stunned, he felt submissive to her every command and reasons. with the pure frustration, anger, irritation and aggression David felt, he just simple replied with, "okay, i'll see you tomorrow."

"good, see you tomorrow sweetheart. love ya."

David felt swallowed up with misery, he felt a cold sensation of emotion strike upon him that he would have to leave Louisa. he wasn't sure for how long, but he knew he couldn't stay over in her apartment no more. his heart ached at the thought, he longed to be with Louisa but as always reality snaps out any happiness one feels. he also dreaded breaking the news to her, all he has ever done was disappoint her. first with going crazy with the drugs, causing her to rush to Iggy's to look after him. and second breaking the news that he will have to break their relationship for a while, until things are settled down between him and Angie. God he hoped she would sign the divorce papers already.
David wanted to release his album with Louisa by his side, and then travelling from show to show on tour with her cute, intrigued self hand in hand with him. he couldn't think like this, it was unhealthy, he already suffered enough from attachment issues in the past.
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"everything alright David?" Louisa welcomed a stricken David into her house. it did spike anxiety within her at his mundane reactions to her talking. he wouldn't even look at her in the eye, something was definitely suspicious and she dreaded to hear what it was.
both of them naturally walked into the kitchen, Louisa leaning against the counter and David standing awkwardly at the entrance of the door. frozen.
"i have to go." David eyed Louisa strongly in the eyes, "Angie threatened to basically ruin my career if i don't return back to our apartment tomorrow." Louisa felt the air around her thicken, a deep pit of sorrow swelled up in her stomach. was she about to cry? she didn't no what to say, she wasn't mentally prepared for this sudden statement to be said. both of them just stared at each-other in mournful silence.
David sensed the tension shift, he slowly walked to face Louisa, who just stared blankly at him. her face made David's heart strain.
"listen, i will have to go back tomorrow and stay there until my album is finished" he lightly cupped his hand onto her jaw, lifting it so she was looking directly into his mis-matched eyes.
"but i promise you i will do what i can to see you as much as possible."
Louisa knew this was unreliable, she knew this news was coming in the first place. of course he would have to go back to his place, with his wife some time soon. he is a celebrity for gods sake, he can't just neglect his career, his family just for some stupid girl he met at a bar one night. it's too rational, to erratic and totally unbelievable.
Louisa just smiled a sympathetic smile, "don't be silly David, i'm not letting you risk your career for me" David was growling desperate by the seconds, he wanted her to trust him. she needed to know how impactful she was to his life, he can't just simply move on. he has grown to be emotionally attached to her, he just couldn't conceal her to his past.
he moved his grip onto her shoulders and Louisa could see his eyes turning bloodshot, the sight of David made her breathing tremble with sadness. "no-no please Louisa please say you will keep in touch with me, you have my number. just say you will?" Louisa delicately grazed her finger tips on his cheek, she felt a warm tear collide with her finger. he was holding back his tears,  his overwhelming emotional. he was in a vulnerable state.
Louisa wiped the single tear away, cupped David's face and connected both of their lips passionately like they have never kissed before in their life. it was deep, the kiss spoke words spiritually, it was a symbolic promise that they will stay connected no matter the hardships they go through.
Louisa parted the kiss softly, "i promise David okay?" Louisa also felt a few tears slip out of her glossy eyes, as with David as well.
how things can change so suddenly, circumstances are erratic and neither of them where emotionally prepared for the dreaded outcome of the phone call.
"thank you love, like i said i'll try my best to see you and call you as much as i can" Louisa nodded in response, she knew how much it meant for him that if they still remain in contact. "i lov-" David suddenly stopped talking mid sentence and his eyes went wide with the wild statement he was about to say so erratically with no thought process behind it. he silently cursed himself at the immaturity of nearly saying it, they have only known each other for a few days and he was nearly saying 'i love you', god he couldn't contain himself. luckily Louisa didn't pick up what David was about to vocalise, she just smiled weakly up at him.

he didn't want the moment to end, but reality has a harsh way of crushing one's desires.