Run from me darling

Fifteen

Off my mind-joe p

While you go get another drink I think of ways to tell you I'm fine
One more vodka soda then you'll never even know that I'm lying
I used to wonder why
You never said goodbye

Nina

A week has come and passed since Castiel hurt his hand and things have been weird. He's been cold and distant.

We don't see each other anymore. He stays in his office till 2 am and I'm usually asleep before he gets into bed and when I wake, he isn't there.

I usually can't sleep until he gets into bed but he won't know that. He is paying me to do nothing at this point. He's completely shut me out this whole week. I feel like something bad is going on and he is doing his best to keep me away from it.

Trisha dropped by today. She was in his office for over an hour and she came out and made sure to give me a very satanic smile before leaving.

I decided that tonight, I'll sleep in my bedroom. I've been unpacking my stuff all day. It was about time everything got out of the boxes and I made myself feel somewhat at home.

I don't know how long I'll be staying here.

I'm starting to enjoy this lavish lifestyle but I also miss the simplicity of my life. I miss doing my own laundry, cooking, and going out on my own. Castiel had stuff picked up for me the other day like I was totally incapable of doing it on my own.

I haven't heard anything about Mandy. Johnny and Ricardo have both been into Castiel's office as well so I wasn't included in this work anymore and he's made that clear.

He must think I'm incapable of helping.

He has also been drinking.. a lot.

I ate dinner quickly before returning back to my room. I took a shower and once I got dressed into my sleep clothes it was almost 12. I was actually exhausted from unpacking.

I pulled back my covers, turned off my lights and got in bed. It felt like a big cloud. Although Castiel's bed was better, this one still felt great or maybe it was just because I was tired.

I didn't bother to close my curtains. The night was too gorgeous not to fall asleep too. I needed a night away from the man that drives me insane. I hated that things felt off but I shouldn't fix something I didn't break. He is the one pulling away from me.

Castiel is good at pushing people away. He has people in his life that care about him but he won't let them close.

"What in the hell do you think you're doing?" I woke up to the sound of an angry cas. I glanced on the clock on my nightstand. 3:32 am. I barely opened my eyes before he got into bed next to me.

"What are you doing?"

"What does it look like I'm doing? I'm sleeping with you." My bed was smaller than his and the space between us felt small or maybe it was because he was right in the middle.

He has a bad habit of stealing all the covers and fucking space.

"Go to your own bed." I demanded. I turn to face him before pulling the covers more on me and higher up on my body.

"I left my office and showered and then went to my bed to only see that it was empty."

"I don't need to sleep in your bed anymore. You've been a stranger to me all week." This wasn't the conversation I wanted to have at 3 in the morning but it seemed to be the right moment.